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For some reason I have an awful feeling just now. I have a feeling that someone I hold close to my heart is going to get hurt. But Im really not sure who or why. School is pointless. I am going to fail all my classes anyways. It's pretty neat how every girl in the whole school thinks that all the freshman guys are hot. I am pretty sick of it. I want to grow up and be on my own. I want to make my own decisions and not have someone telling me what to do every freaking minute. But, I don't want to grow up to fast. I can't live on my own, there is no way. Everyone everywhere at school is fighting, for some reason or another. Shoot, I could be in a fight with someone right now and they or me would never know it. I don't know. I don't like school and apperently I feel like something bad is going to happen. I don't ever ever really have a "real talk" with the person I used to know. I still know them, but everything is different. As long as their happy, I'm happy? I'm not sure how that works. But to tell you the truth, I'm not happy at all. And I don't think I will be for a while. I have actually thought about killing myself ever since school started. I know it's wrong, but I don't know. I just don't like dealing with school this year. Especially with all the "bitches" everywhere. There is a certain person that gets brought up in about every single conversation ever. I am about to kill her, so I won't have to hear her name again. Blah. I'm sick of it. My English teacher is pissing me off. Apperently he doesn't like the president and blames all these problems lately on him. But did Mr. Gould ever think that it's not all President Bush's fault, and that maybe that people in our class actually do respect him? I don't know, but I'm not going to blame everything on the President, because it's not all his fault. Mr. Gould can die in a hole somewhere. I miss hanging out with those 3 people. Amelia, Shantal and Adam. Gosh, it makes me want to cry when I think about it. I miss those times when we would just go to Orlando for the heck of it and just hang and talk about how much life sucks. I love you guys.