and when she went...she cried for a year
yesterday was interesting.
>>i will not forgive you. you were wrong<<
had quite an awakening, sometimes listening to other peoples point of views really enforces things..or it does for me. we talked - a long time - i felt like crying but i didnt - i just did that glassy eyed, cant breathe, chokin on something kinda deal - but she enforced exactly what i already knew, that i will not forgive. normally if i am wrong i can say it..it kills me cause im stubborn as shit, but i do it just the same- i just dont understand what it is with people in this world! - always butting in eachother's business, really where it does not belong (prime example: valentines day) - but i surpass things people THINK they know or dont know - if you ask me..teens these days are dumber than id ever thought we'd get..i am just too old for my age i guess- "we are the mature kids" as the great on-dres says..maybe not on the outside..but on the inside tis true. i dont have time for stupid people, always looking for controversy..im too tired..im worn out - whether they fear rejection, and blame responsibility on someone else that was on their side from day one just so it doesnt hurt as much (cough cough)- or whether its some stupid catty girls that think they know you, attempting to sway someone else's thoughts of you on Valentines Day..boy, i cant stand mercy..everyday a bit of me dies in there..but you'll never know..
last night i talked to blake for a while..i guess now he knows exactly why being me isnt all its cracked up to be..it was quite a talk - actually it was me venting and poor blake listening on the other end..but regardless, he is a good friend.
basically, i've come to the realization that - life really isnt worth a thing - its full of people that you give your whole self to at some point in time, just to be screwed over and feel wasted when its all over. things that wouldnt normally bother me, are lately..i just dont think the world is ready for my story..
ill leave it to ON-DRES for a closing statement:
XtRemE865: let it be summer already
- well spoken my dear -
>>i will not forgive you. you were wrong<<
had quite an awakening, sometimes listening to other peoples point of views really enforces things..or it does for me. we talked - a long time - i felt like crying but i didnt - i just did that glassy eyed, cant breathe, chokin on something kinda deal - but she enforced exactly what i already knew, that i will not forgive. normally if i am wrong i can say it..it kills me cause im stubborn as shit, but i do it just the same- i just dont understand what it is with people in this world! - always butting in eachother's business, really where it does not belong (prime example: valentines day) - but i surpass things people THINK they know or dont know - if you ask me..teens these days are dumber than id ever thought we'd get..i am just too old for my age i guess- "we are the mature kids" as the great on-dres says..maybe not on the outside..but on the inside tis true. i dont have time for stupid people, always looking for controversy..im too tired..im worn out - whether they fear rejection, and blame responsibility on someone else that was on their side from day one just so it doesnt hurt as much (cough cough)- or whether its some stupid catty girls that think they know you, attempting to sway someone else's thoughts of you on Valentines Day..boy, i cant stand mercy..everyday a bit of me dies in there..but you'll never know..
last night i talked to blake for a while..i guess now he knows exactly why being me isnt all its cracked up to be..it was quite a talk - actually it was me venting and poor blake listening on the other end..but regardless, he is a good friend.
basically, i've come to the realization that - life really isnt worth a thing - its full of people that you give your whole self to at some point in time, just to be screwed over and feel wasted when its all over. things that wouldnt normally bother me, are lately..i just dont think the world is ready for my story..
ill leave it to ON-DRES for a closing statement:
XtRemE865: let it be summer already
- well spoken my dear -