Everywhere people stare
Today was much better than yesterday.
I had to take 3rd lunch and that was nice. I never see Sarah or Kendra or Colleen.
I'm thinking maybe part of the reason today was so good is because I didn't c a certain person. And that really confuses me b/c I want to c this person...who I'll call Gilbert... and I mean idk when I see "Gilbert" I'm happy sumtimes...when it's not in school I'm very happy b/c we have fun. but then when we're in school I feel really ignored and I'm really tired of it. Maybe I'm just saying this cuz I'm tired...and i'll prolly b over this by like tomorrow but as of right now I am pissed. When you're a really good friend to sumone and they don't return the good friendness what do u do? :/ Idkkkkkkk...but i've been thinking about this a lot and I've come to the conclusion that I'm just gonna stop trying. If Gilbert doesn't want to talk to me that's fine. Then I won't talk back. I'm gonna try this...but it's most likely not gonna work b/c whne I go to school tomorrow Gilbert is gonna b really nice to me and then I'll forget all about it until it happens again. Ughh...idk I have fun with Gilbert but it's only when we're not at school...ahhh idk wat to do...nvm I'll forget it...
Ughh and of course now I'm doing sumthing wrong...can I ever do anything right? Obviously not
I had to take 3rd lunch and that was nice. I never see Sarah or Kendra or Colleen.
I'm thinking maybe part of the reason today was so good is because I didn't c a certain person. And that really confuses me b/c I want to c this person...who I'll call Gilbert... and I mean idk when I see "Gilbert" I'm happy sumtimes...when it's not in school I'm very happy b/c we have fun. but then when we're in school I feel really ignored and I'm really tired of it. Maybe I'm just saying this cuz I'm tired...and i'll prolly b over this by like tomorrow but as of right now I am pissed. When you're a really good friend to sumone and they don't return the good friendness what do u do? :/ Idkkkkkkk...but i've been thinking about this a lot and I've come to the conclusion that I'm just gonna stop trying. If Gilbert doesn't want to talk to me that's fine. Then I won't talk back. I'm gonna try this...but it's most likely not gonna work b/c whne I go to school tomorrow Gilbert is gonna b really nice to me and then I'll forget all about it until it happens again. Ughh...idk I have fun with Gilbert but it's only when we're not at school...ahhh idk wat to do...nvm I'll forget it...
Ughh and of course now I'm doing sumthing wrong...can I ever do anything right? Obviously not