too much chocolate
Work Work Work - I am getting tired of work. I just want to sleep the week away! My mom (and Abdel's mom) was here this weekend and we had a good time. It was super cold for most of the weekend, but we still walked all over Bloomington - to a little restaurant downtown, Abdel's office on campus, the university greenhouse. It felt really really really good to not think about work and just be with my mom. My relationship with her is...not bad really, but not wonderful. But I still got really sad to see her for only a couple of days, knowing that when she left I wouldn't see her again for months. I felt myself about to cry today when she left at the airport - for a lot of different reasons. One being that she's really sad about my dad being gone and it's just...hard to see my mom like that. She hardly ever shows anything other than happy. And even worse, I got a call a few hours ago to say that one of her brothers died this morning - so I know when she gets home from the airport, she'll have messages from lots of family asking her to call. And she'll be home, alone, dealing with the first loss of one of her siblings.
Anyway, change of subject: I ate waaaaaay too much and am a little depressed about that. But I kinda can't stop and am about to tear through this box of chocolates my future mother-in-law brought from California. Sometimes I just feel like this - an insatiable hunger that isn't even about being hungry. I'm definitely an emotional eater ... and, well, a social one too.
I'm also very very sad that I have to go to work tomorrow. I'm just...lethargic. I have no energy. I'm anticipating a very bad day of work tomorrow. I kept waking up last night thinking of all the things I have to do at work and probably should've done last week, but I promised to not work over the weekend and just spend the time with our moms. I like working, but I don't like missing my family because of it - so I'm ok with my choice, but will pay for it tomorrow as I'm overwhelmed with all the phone calls, paperwork, etc to do.
Anyway, my writing is terrible tonight. I seriously can't think straight enough to write anything decent. I wish...I was in college again. I'd skip all my Monday classes, go to Encore for lunch, watch tv in my room, then spend the rest of the night under the covers.
Anyway, change of subject: I ate waaaaaay too much and am a little depressed about that. But I kinda can't stop and am about to tear through this box of chocolates my future mother-in-law brought from California. Sometimes I just feel like this - an insatiable hunger that isn't even about being hungry. I'm definitely an emotional eater ... and, well, a social one too.
I'm also very very sad that I have to go to work tomorrow. I'm just...lethargic. I have no energy. I'm anticipating a very bad day of work tomorrow. I kept waking up last night thinking of all the things I have to do at work and probably should've done last week, but I promised to not work over the weekend and just spend the time with our moms. I like working, but I don't like missing my family because of it - so I'm ok with my choice, but will pay for it tomorrow as I'm overwhelmed with all the phone calls, paperwork, etc to do.
Anyway, my writing is terrible tonight. I seriously can't think straight enough to write anything decent. I wish...I was in college again. I'd skip all my Monday classes, go to Encore for lunch, watch tv in my room, then spend the rest of the night under the covers.