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[cannot_break_me]

i give up.
i try to make contact with people today.
to see what's new.
to see how life was treating them.
mostly b/c of my own selfish reasons i wanted to hang out today...
i didn't want to be alone.
i talked to my mom today.
hung up with her and wanted to die.
my dad's sick.
most people don't understand this.
i dont think i have ever been more scared in my life.
i know i will see him on saturday.
i couldnt talk to him today b/c he was sleeping.
they check his heart every two hours.
he cant eat b/c hes so sick.
i just want my dad back.