fuck buddy

[cannon_ball5]

so i showed michael the msg that his wife sent to me. the good news is that he probably wasnt lying to me when he said that she wasnt happy with it, but could kind of understand it. he said that since they talked about me, they've had sex more times than they had in the previous year (def didnt need to know this..) but what that makes me think is that she's really insecure about where she stands with him... i've seens rom-coms and enough girlie tv to know this. and then again how can i put another person thru this? how can i willingly and knowingly cause distress to another person. she obviously loves her husband.. or at least is afraid to be without him.. either way i'm not the type to go along with it. i mean thats kind of why i didnt want to be with him when i realized he was married. i dont like lies, or hurting people.

then again i'm super feeling used right now. i went from being his girlfriend yesterday to today he said he considers me a really good friend that he has sexual chemistry with... which is also known as fuck buddy. and that really really hurts. this is the first guy that i've had feelings for since brandon and i made myself vulnerable and mushy.. and ofcourse i get crushed.

its to the point now that he wants to take some time... but still call me, and msg me. he just cant see me now while he's working out all the issues in his life. i was so very freakishly excited about seeing him.

i told him that i loved him.. and now i'm just a really good friend. good grief i should know better .