oh damn.
well i went out to lunch with jeff today. it was really nice. we talked and laughed and had fun together... and then he tried to take me home.
he's such a fun guy, and its not like i havent done that before... and yet i turned him down. mostly because the moment he said it... michael immediately popped into my mind. and i just couldnt do it after that.
... and thats a bad sign
a really REALLY bad sign.
i mean i've had it where i think about jared when i'm getting close to someone.. but i can usually get over it easily. i'm sure i could have this time too, but the thing was that i didnt want to. i mean i've known that i love him for a while now. or at least what i think that love is.. but i didnt realize it had gotten to the point where i didnt really want to be with anyone else.
i just really hope i dont get bored too soon.
he's such a fun guy, and its not like i havent done that before... and yet i turned him down. mostly because the moment he said it... michael immediately popped into my mind. and i just couldnt do it after that.
... and thats a bad sign
a really REALLY bad sign.
i mean i've had it where i think about jared when i'm getting close to someone.. but i can usually get over it easily. i'm sure i could have this time too, but the thing was that i didnt want to. i mean i've known that i love him for a while now. or at least what i think that love is.. but i didnt realize it had gotten to the point where i didnt really want to be with anyone else.
i just really hope i dont get bored too soon.