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I finished my journal. IT TURNED OUT AWESOME! But I'm not posting any pictures until it reaches it's new owner. For.. Uh.. Safety reasons. x) I deleted the rest of the photos for now, too. They'll be up along with the finished ones later.. If you want to see, just drop me a note.
The past week in my life.. Has been the most awakening week of my life. Period. I feel so completely... Accomplished.. Free. Truely free. Loved.. Complete.. I feel like myself again. After so long. What a safe feeling it is. And to realize this. I had help. I had met someone about a month ago.. Maybe a little more then a month. (I mentioned him in a past post, He's the one who sent me the 4-leaf clover.. No letter, or writings.. Just a little index card with a 4-leaf clover in it.. Soooooo sweet.. It's by far the best thing i've ever recieved from anyone.. By far.) He's.. The most 'free' person I have ever known. He's the way I used to be. He's so very wonderful. The way I loved to be.. And him, just being himself, made me realize so much. I need to be myself. And not what others want to see.. I mean. I'm not, anyway. Atleast not totally. But I am a little. And.. Yeah.. No more.. NO MORE! *flails* No more being guilted into things! So more feeling bad for shit i shouldn't have to feel bad about! None! It's over man! OVER! *settles down*
The past week I have been so happy. Happier EVERY day. I love waking up.. I love going to bed. I feel so much love.. I know, I know. It sounds utterly cheezy. And it is! But i don't care. Today I went for a 2 mile walk with my dog.. Just walked.. I sat down in some grass, facing the lake.. Watching birds, and people passing buy for an hour.. I felt so damn happy inside. I was smiling the entire time. Doing nothing. Every day that passes i feel like i just get more and more happy. The most trivial things bring me pleasure. Sitting on my roof for an our staring at the clouds passing. Standing out in the rain and getting soaked. Feeling wet gras under my bare feet. Guh! I feel so lame saying this crap. But I feel good! I don't care that it's lame. I want to run around everywhere and do things..
Anyway.. Sorry about that. I just needed to rant about how HAPPY I FEEL.. And yeah.. Thank you for reading..
Guh! I feel like i'm on a stupid WB afterschool special or some shit.. I'll stop now.. Honest.. :o
I'm going for a walk. ^-^
The past week in my life.. Has been the most awakening week of my life. Period. I feel so completely... Accomplished.. Free. Truely free. Loved.. Complete.. I feel like myself again. After so long. What a safe feeling it is. And to realize this. I had help. I had met someone about a month ago.. Maybe a little more then a month. (I mentioned him in a past post, He's the one who sent me the 4-leaf clover.. No letter, or writings.. Just a little index card with a 4-leaf clover in it.. Soooooo sweet.. It's by far the best thing i've ever recieved from anyone.. By far.) He's.. The most 'free' person I have ever known. He's the way I used to be. He's so very wonderful. The way I loved to be.. And him, just being himself, made me realize so much. I need to be myself. And not what others want to see.. I mean. I'm not, anyway. Atleast not totally. But I am a little. And.. Yeah.. No more.. NO MORE! *flails* No more being guilted into things! So more feeling bad for shit i shouldn't have to feel bad about! None! It's over man! OVER! *settles down*
The past week I have been so happy. Happier EVERY day. I love waking up.. I love going to bed. I feel so much love.. I know, I know. It sounds utterly cheezy. And it is! But i don't care. Today I went for a 2 mile walk with my dog.. Just walked.. I sat down in some grass, facing the lake.. Watching birds, and people passing buy for an hour.. I felt so damn happy inside. I was smiling the entire time. Doing nothing. Every day that passes i feel like i just get more and more happy. The most trivial things bring me pleasure. Sitting on my roof for an our staring at the clouds passing. Standing out in the rain and getting soaked. Feeling wet gras under my bare feet. Guh! I feel so lame saying this crap. But I feel good! I don't care that it's lame. I want to run around everywhere and do things..
Anyway.. Sorry about that. I just needed to rant about how HAPPY I FEEL.. And yeah.. Thank you for reading..
Guh! I feel like i'm on a stupid WB afterschool special or some shit.. I'll stop now.. Honest.. :o
I'm going for a walk. ^-^