Lost and not recovered.
My computer really crashed a few days ago and i would never ever possibly really know how much i would feel so insecure when my HD died (yes, i lost the most precious thing and sorry, it wasn't arashi <--cos i actually backed the boys up just a day before! can you believe that? but not the other!). The feeling was so different from a personal choice of not being able to touch a computer for days (e.g. when you're on an isolated island where you don't have a computer or when you're stuck in a place where there's no internet connection) vs the machine crashed and thing(s) were taken away from you.
For days, i felt so lost... and i part of me was worrying about what i can do to make it up to what was lost. Of course i still feel terribly silly not to have backed THAT up. Worse, i didn't have the $$ to pay for data recovery because USD1300-3000 is too much for me for it. (This is when i wish i was wealthier in monetary terms.) *sighs*
i feel kinda odd about the whole incident... guess with what may seem to me as "bad" happening will cause something "good" to occur somewhere else and it surely did. Maybe God just have a way to make things move, perhaps forward.
Glad i got my computer back today but we feel like strangers now... it's got a new brain and shutting down on me every time i install something new. haaa... Please, let's be pals like before again--- let me type & dl without you throwing anymore tantrums?
....and i really miss everyone around, and arashi!! (withdrawal symptoms were pretty bad.) So happy to be back again~ : ))