Best Friends Means I Pulled The Trigger... Best Friends Means You Get What You Deserve...
So today was a peaceful day.... I fucking hted today... It was boring, and no one wanted to bother... I feel used by most of my friends, like when they get what they want or find something better Im the one they tell to fuck off, except they dont have the guts to tell me to fuck off they just stop telling me anything at all. I am a burning bridge that everyone gets across just to turn and watch me fall away to ashes and rubble. from now on I feel like I should be the one burning bridges, not being a bridge that's burning. I want a good friend, hell I want a good person in my life that I can feel close to and call on when I need help... Like yesterday when I was alone and needed someone to talk to... Where was everyone? Why the fuck was no one willing to talk to me... I don't bring up my problems unless they are major, and all you can fucking do when I do bring them up is turn your god damn backs on me? fuck that... I am tired of being a victim. I want out . I denounce everyone in my life at this point but a certain select few. I am tired of everyone telling me Im so great and people treat me like shit and I shouldn't let it happen, but when I stop it with the person they tell me that's doing it to me, the end up doing the same thing to me... I am not a god damn arm for you people to stick your mental fucking needles into. I am not a victim any longer. One more person treats me like shit, I will fucking make your life a living hell. I will tear you down in the worst possible way... mentally. I will make everything around you in your false non existent lives seem that much more fake. That way you can see what you have done... So you can see how meaningless you are compared to me. I have worth, and I realize that now. I may not be worth much to others but to me, I am worth the world. I am a catch, and if you dont want me fuck it, i dont care. I am who I am, and I am a better person then every asshole that I am including in this statement. So from now on, I am saying this to everyone who has ever held me down... To everyone who has ever told me I can't do anything... And for everyone who says I am a failure, nad insults me time and time again, besides one person that I know is joking when they inult me... FUCK YOU!!! I will one day watch you crumble, and I in the end will be victorious!!!