lingering effects

[cannedtomatos]

last summer when my world was a whirl of pain and pills and sleeplessness
i would take long hot showers
letting the water take a bit if my pain and wash it down the drain
along with the tears it was ok to shed in the shower

i could breathe
just for a few minutes
in the scalding hot water
standing there until my water heater couldn't meet my demand anymore

months later when i find myself in need
for relief of pain
physical, emotional,whatever
I think of a shower
strip down, climb in
and let the water
take my pain again
and i sleep