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so... i've not used this in so so long, about 2-3 years, if not more... i came across livejournal whilst clearing out an old laptop and discovered it amongst my web page history... its so strange to think how much has changed in the last few years, even since school finished...
i've lost my dad, fought for my life in hospital, been in relationships that have left me on top of the world, been in relationships that have left me hospitalised, made friends that will hopefully last me a lifetime and realised that friends i had in school weren't my friends after all, i've travelled the world, i've gained educational qualifications beyond my wildest dreams, i've loved life and i've hated life... much has changed in the last decade, as we amble towards 2010, but nothing makes you appreciate those people you have as much as losing someone you love so much it hurts. death has no second chances. it puts everything into perspective.
i've no doubt that writing on here whilst very drunk isn't a good idea, but as nobody i know in *real* life ever uses this, its fine.
tonight whilst out and about i saw lots of people i used to class as good friends at school, i didnt say hi as i realised they had no wish to speak to me, but then at the taxi rank afterwards one of their brothers got into a bit of trouble and every part of me wanted to run and help them. if not to help the brother then to help her. atleast try. be there. show support. even if i couldnt. how stupid am i? in one moment of adversity i forget 7 years of being banished.
oh well.
i'll maybe write a more pointful entry when im sober sometime. or most probably i wont. most probably it'll be another 2-3 years before i update here again.
2010 in a few days, lets see what the rest of this century has to deliver..
i've lost my dad, fought for my life in hospital, been in relationships that have left me on top of the world, been in relationships that have left me hospitalised, made friends that will hopefully last me a lifetime and realised that friends i had in school weren't my friends after all, i've travelled the world, i've gained educational qualifications beyond my wildest dreams, i've loved life and i've hated life... much has changed in the last decade, as we amble towards 2010, but nothing makes you appreciate those people you have as much as losing someone you love so much it hurts. death has no second chances. it puts everything into perspective.
i've no doubt that writing on here whilst very drunk isn't a good idea, but as nobody i know in *real* life ever uses this, its fine.
tonight whilst out and about i saw lots of people i used to class as good friends at school, i didnt say hi as i realised they had no wish to speak to me, but then at the taxi rank afterwards one of their brothers got into a bit of trouble and every part of me wanted to run and help them. if not to help the brother then to help her. atleast try. be there. show support. even if i couldnt. how stupid am i? in one moment of adversity i forget 7 years of being banished.
oh well.
i'll maybe write a more pointful entry when im sober sometime. or most probably i wont. most probably it'll be another 2-3 years before i update here again.
2010 in a few days, lets see what the rest of this century has to deliver..