grrr
i have so much hw to do, but i don't want to do any of it. i hate siting at home doing nothing when i know my friends are out having a good time. it makes me feel so left out. i wish i was allowed to go places and hang out with people. its not fair that i can't, there is no real reason for it. how am i supposed to have fun in high school if i can't even spend free time with my friends? i don't want to wait till i'm in college, because then all my friends will be in different places and i will barely ever see them. yes, i know i will make new friends, but still...i want to hang out with the friends that i have now. at school, when my friends talk about what they did over the weekend, i'm always the one on the outside, left out of the conversation because i wasn't there. i am never there, i'm always at home. i hate this place.