Irony

[canis_lupus]

I can't help but run through my head what I would be doing and what I would be thinking if I was still a part of that life. It's almost like it's playing out in my head like a parallel universe. The Irony of it all is that I know in that case.. If today was really the monday before my wedding, I would be spending some time thinking about what it would be like if I wasn't going to be getting married. I think in either case the visions would have been much better than reality. I certainly wouldn't have pictured myself as being a depressed lump this week if I were free, and I'm sure my visions of what my wedding would have been like are far more pleasant than they actually would have been.

I'm actually starting to have pain in my brain... I've never felt this before.. It's like I know some part of me is going to die on saturday.