more venting.
so I'm stressing about this whole eventually in-laws things.
I don't think I did anything wrong. I've apologized already and I don't plan on begging and groveling. so if they decide they don't want me around, but when James and I eventually get married it might suck for them to not see their son get married. oh well their choice.
I would just prefer to not be treated like an inconsiderate bastard child.
Also I really need to find some fucking time to turn in that damn paper work, I really need to start this job. it's the only way I can even afford to purchase a car. I'm trying not to stress about it. I have alot on my plate but I can't really complain. its not like a earth quake ruined my whole country, so I'll get over it. lol
ohhhh, the other day Aden's father wrote me:
I know you probably never want to speak to me again... But I just wanted to know how you are doing? And How is Aden doing?
I don't know why I have taken so long to try to communicate with you, but just to let you know, I have been going back to doctors and trying our research chemicals to try and help my situation. I apologize for everything and I apologize for myself... I have no excuse, I know.
I hope everything is going well you you all!!!
-Josh
I never wrote back and I'm glad I didn't. As much as I'd like to be all "oh, maybe he DOES feel bad, but even robots have more feelings than him. Don't get me wrong I really wish the best for him and I hope he's learn from this. I love my son and thats all he really needs. Stability, not someone constantly standing him up.
I have to say I'm so happy that I'm finally back to this thing. I really need a friend I can vent to without judgement. friends are hard to find these days...my closest ones live so far away and the others done have time for me or my issues.
well over and out.
XOXO
I don't think I did anything wrong. I've apologized already and I don't plan on begging and groveling. so if they decide they don't want me around, but when James and I eventually get married it might suck for them to not see their son get married. oh well their choice.
I would just prefer to not be treated like an inconsiderate bastard child.
Also I really need to find some fucking time to turn in that damn paper work, I really need to start this job. it's the only way I can even afford to purchase a car. I'm trying not to stress about it. I have alot on my plate but I can't really complain. its not like a earth quake ruined my whole country, so I'll get over it. lol
ohhhh, the other day Aden's father wrote me:
I know you probably never want to speak to me again... But I just wanted to know how you are doing? And How is Aden doing?
I don't know why I have taken so long to try to communicate with you, but just to let you know, I have been going back to doctors and trying our research chemicals to try and help my situation. I apologize for everything and I apologize for myself... I have no excuse, I know.
I hope everything is going well you you all!!!
-Josh
I never wrote back and I'm glad I didn't. As much as I'd like to be all "oh, maybe he DOES feel bad, but even robots have more feelings than him. Don't get me wrong I really wish the best for him and I hope he's learn from this. I love my son and thats all he really needs. Stability, not someone constantly standing him up.
I have to say I'm so happy that I'm finally back to this thing. I really need a friend I can vent to without judgement. friends are hard to find these days...my closest ones live so far away and the others done have time for me or my issues.
well over and out.
XOXO