So.................Yeah

Apr 16, 2006 00:46

haha.......it has been a really long time since i have posted ne thing....sorry Linsey.....since u are the only one that ever post on here any more. I wish that werent the case :-/
ne who, there has been a shit load of stuff that has happened since the last time that i have been on here. Me and Jared started dating. :-) I really wasnt sure how it was going to go to begin with. we are so different and have such different backgrounds and experiences that i was scared he wasnt going to like who he found me to be. Things have been kind of rocky. Already we have a communication problem...he has a hard time talking things out. he would rather talk to me online over AIM then talk to me in person. That really bothers me. But we are working on it and the other night we had a really long talk about things that need to change and the fact that he is not ready for some of the things that people usually expect out of a relationship. im cool with that.....i just needed to know what he wanted. I am really glad that we decided to try dating. i know that sounds a little weird to some people...but u guys that know us know that we are both weird people :-P It is one of the first times that i have been in an equal relationship with someone. I have come to a grand realizastion tho.....i understand now some of what was wrong in mine and tims relationship......its hard dealing with inexperience......and boy was i the prime example of that when we were dating. I love being around Jared. He holds my hand for no reason, kisses me on the forhead in front of people he knows, got his ears pierced with me....so yes.....for those of u who dont know yet...i know how FOUR holes in my head and Jared has aquired a cartilage piercing. This all came out of the fact that we were supposed to go to carrowinds friday and def didnt stay. There were more people there then i have ever seen at Disney World. it was fuckin crazy. so we stood in line from 10:30-11:45 and hadnt even reached the counter just to get tickets to go in. Not to mention the fact that there was a line twice as long to get into the park on the other side of the ticket counters. we were about 4 families away when we just decided the hell with it all and went to concord mills. Yeah i know...concord mills over carrowinds? believe me...it was worth it. so yeah...we were walkn around the mall when i walked into the Icing store and just randomly decided that i wanted to get my ears pierced a 4th time. haha i am HORRIBLE with needles and anything for that matter that pierces thru my skin. Lets just say that Jareds hand might not ever be the same :-) Linsey had to put the dot on my ear for the earring bc the lady couldnt get them level......thank God for my Magician....what would i do without u?
so yeah...back to this whole relationship thing....lol.....It is the first time that i have been around someone that i know appreciates me. he doesnt shove me away just bc a friend of his walks over to talk to him. He is consistent and that is something that i need right now. I need someone that i know i can depend on and wont cast me aside......at least if he ever did i know he would give me an explination instead of ignoring me. Tickle fights are often and i dont feel stupid around him or feel like i have to try and be somebody else. I love that i can be me.....me is somebody i have missed now for a really long time.
enough about that i guess......let me just say how i cannot wait to go on these concert dates with dana!!!! we are going to see Nine Inch Nails june 10th but before that even we are going to see 3 Days Grace in Atlanta, Georgia. We are making a road trip!!!! YEAH!!!! i really miss the spontenaity(sp?) of last year. I CANT WAIT!!! i just have to make it through the rest of this semester. It has been hell here lately.I keep forgeting everything. i dont know whats wrong with me. I am just so put out with school. i just want it to be over with. i am so jelous of Linsey bc after 2 more years...she is DONE!!! and i am looking at grad school to be a PA. i am so unenthusiastic about things that i used to love that i dont know if it is what i want to do anymore. i really dont know what to do. I am hoping that it is just this year and that things will be better next year. HAHAHAHAHA..........i said that about last year. Hopefully this will not be a running pattern :-/
well tomorrow Jared gets to meet the WHOLE family. Kinda weird since we have only been dating for almost 3 weeks....but eh...it works. Just as long as they dont embaress the complete hell out of me. today we roadtripped with my rents up to grandfather mountain and into boone. i love it up there. the only thing i dont love is thats where jared is talkn about transferring. great for him.........but whatever. Tomorrow we are goin to my aunts house to hunt for Easter eggs and be manic little 5 year olds running around...haha sounds like fun for me. P.S. my mom got Jared an Easter basket for in the morning. yes......i am almost 20 years old and i still have an Easter basket.....Im just good like that....:-P
well i guess i ought to sleep..........MIss u Dana......Happy Birthday Linsey!!!...and well.....miss u too...:-P
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