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Yea I'm back, because I need to get this out. Because it kills me so much. Like I don't think you understand how much it hurts, and it shouldn't at all. He fucking hates me and it's my fault. And seeing them in the hallway is just too much. And this killed me most of all
"But in happier news buckleman is taken again haha definitely found a girl worth the commitment too and it makes me so happy <33 and I know you're reading this lol- I love you Melissa!!!! ;) hahahaha. But yeah I'm definitely happy that I talked to her about it and stopped fearing it ending badly because we're both on the same page and we both can accept what is to be from it all and It's the happiest thing in my life right now =) <33333333 She definitely makes life worth all the bs =P"
hah. So I guess I never meant anything at all, and it wasn't even worth it. Even Christie said he was too good for me. Blah. I shouldn't feel this way. But I guess it's my fault right? I mean I said some things I didn't mean, and I know he did to, but I didn't mean it. I don't know what to do, but this is getting out of hand.
"But in happier news buckleman is taken again haha definitely found a girl worth the commitment too and it makes me so happy <33 and I know you're reading this lol- I love you Melissa!!!! ;) hahahaha. But yeah I'm definitely happy that I talked to her about it and stopped fearing it ending badly because we're both on the same page and we both can accept what is to be from it all and It's the happiest thing in my life right now =) <33333333 She definitely makes life worth all the bs =P"
hah. So I guess I never meant anything at all, and it wasn't even worth it. Even Christie said he was too good for me. Blah. I shouldn't feel this way. But I guess it's my fault right? I mean I said some things I didn't mean, and I know he did to, but I didn't mean it. I don't know what to do, but this is getting out of hand.