this has been said so many times that I'm not sure if it matters...
today was by far the best day I've had in awhile. granted, school still sucks, but at least today it was more tolerable.
the afs social was fun and it was good for me to be able to laugh. I learned that ella is really nice, that bartos unceasingly cheats while playing cards, and that him and emeriqué are a dangerous combination. so much for watching napoleon dynamite though... playing cards was so much more fun. haha emeriqué also tried to take a ton of pictures and of course I masterfully dodged most, but yah... the social and giving him a ride home was fun.
another reason for my unusual good mood: I took a 3 1/2 hour nap today. I came home after the social and didnt wake up until rach called. I couldn't have spent those hours in any better way.
now to the real reason today was so wonderful: I love rach so much. we had the most amazing conversation tonight and just spent time together being friends. this is what highschool should be like; I should be spending this time building up my relationships with others instead of pouring over the computer or hw in a crappy attempt to satify insatiable teachers. I mean... we just talked about life, about theology... about everything. of course none of what we talked about will get me and A in any of my classes, but it was just so refreshing and inspiring. I feel like I'm wasting my life away right now and I'm just sickened by the fact that I'm not doing anything to prevent my decline. I dont know.. I just wish I had more oppertunities to actually talk with people. not about other people or about specific events but just about life and raw emotion. there are so few people in my life that I could approach who wouldnt think I'm insane if I started asking them their beliefs on destiny, eternity, love. I want that... I want that kind of closeness in relationships. all that school is doing is robbing me of any chance to do that though.. and I'm about fed up...
*sigh*... today was amazing. I hope this feeling lasts for awhile.
I wanna live again
I wanna start everything over again
I wanna get this right
the afs social was fun and it was good for me to be able to laugh. I learned that ella is really nice, that bartos unceasingly cheats while playing cards, and that him and emeriqué are a dangerous combination. so much for watching napoleon dynamite though... playing cards was so much more fun. haha emeriqué also tried to take a ton of pictures and of course I masterfully dodged most, but yah... the social and giving him a ride home was fun.
another reason for my unusual good mood: I took a 3 1/2 hour nap today. I came home after the social and didnt wake up until rach called. I couldn't have spent those hours in any better way.
now to the real reason today was so wonderful: I love rach so much. we had the most amazing conversation tonight and just spent time together being friends. this is what highschool should be like; I should be spending this time building up my relationships with others instead of pouring over the computer or hw in a crappy attempt to satify insatiable teachers. I mean... we just talked about life, about theology... about everything. of course none of what we talked about will get me and A in any of my classes, but it was just so refreshing and inspiring. I feel like I'm wasting my life away right now and I'm just sickened by the fact that I'm not doing anything to prevent my decline. I dont know.. I just wish I had more oppertunities to actually talk with people. not about other people or about specific events but just about life and raw emotion. there are so few people in my life that I could approach who wouldnt think I'm insane if I started asking them their beliefs on destiny, eternity, love. I want that... I want that kind of closeness in relationships. all that school is doing is robbing me of any chance to do that though.. and I'm about fed up...
*sigh*... today was amazing. I hope this feeling lasts for awhile.
I wanna live again
I wanna start everything over again
I wanna get this right