the same problem tears me to pieces inside.. and I'm left to wonder why.

[cangsta]

I've recently realized how much music impacts my life or I guess how much it reflects whats going on in it anyway. As I reflect on some of the saddest times in my life, the music was the same. And the happiest times... there was the happiest music. Maybe some of it is my emotional connection to the songs and what they mean in terms of nostalgia but I dunno. I talked about this with Jake once... the fact that the true test of ability of a lyricist is whether they can create lyrics that are so universal that they mean different things to different people. And well... I dunno how much that's true or not, but I guess at times like right now, I'm just astounded at how perfect some lyrics to specific songs can match the events in my life or at least my emotions. It makes me wonder whether I'll ever be able to connect to other lyrics in other songs. The ones I want to experience.. the songs I wish I was part of.

I want to create music. I want to impact those around me. I want to be part of something bigger than what I am.

but first, I just want to get out of high school. today was lovely and I crave freedom.

that's about all I feel like writing. goodbye.