I was out late, long enough to really think things over well...
so this is my first entry of the new year. woo freakin hoo.
Alabama was good, for a lot of reasons. I got to reconnect with the J-Gurlz and Rach and had a lot of fun being stupid. I got to try out my new camera from Christmas and Rach and I looked ravishing in our wedding/new years attire. haha it was fun to get ready and it was fun to just mess around until ungodly hours and destroy our hotel room in the process. overall: it was just fun. as if I haven't used that word enough. oh and I got an amazing blackmail picture of jacob and justin. SCORE.
I'm gonna stay eighteen forever
So we can stay like this forever
And we'll never miss a party
cause we keep them going constantly
And we'll never have to listen
to anyone about anything
cause it's all been done and it's all been said
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get.
I'm truly blessed to live the life I live and I guess, not as a new years revolution (as Chris would call it) but just as a life goal, I'd like to be more appreciative and less cynical. lofty I know, but essential I think to making myself a little happier. I mean, driving through New Orleans and seeing the destruction kinda woke me up to the material blessings I have, and spending time with people who care for me or at least talking on the phone to people I care about while I was gone woke me up to the non-material blessings I have. I get into ruts sometime, and I become unhappy, but overall I do still have some things to be thankful for and maybe I should try harder to realize them.
side note: music is amazing. and people with beautiful voices astound me. I love listening and singing and feeling the pulse of songs within my own beating heart. nothing is quite like it.
there are still some things to be resolved and some questions that still linger. but I think this weekend helped in a lot of ways. it helped things within my mind and with people I was with just as much as it helped things with people who weren't in "bama." I have some things I want to do and people I want to see/talk to, and hopefully I can resolve everything else within the next few weeks.
if i fall in the end, will you be holding on to me?
because you, you said you'd never leave me
the choice is up to you
to find out what to do
to let it go or keep kicking me to the side
i'm getting tired of your shit
and i can't deal with it
i gave up giving in, and now it's time to say goodbye
you can blame all the lyrics on the fact that I have my music on random and some songs with relevant lyrics have been popping up...hm yah. I'll blame it on that instead of the fact that I'm running on just a few hours of sleep. sounds good.
They come and go, love (Come and go, but they, but they)
But they're all the same (D-da, d-da, da da, da da)
Even big, bad bad-boys get scared at night
It keeps them safe. (At home baby)
I'm gonna throw this rock down (Gonna throw it down, let it roll)
Tonight's the night (Tonight)
I'm gonna go out, fire it up, honey (I'm gonna lose 'em when I)
Gonna turn back time.
Alabama was good, for a lot of reasons. I got to reconnect with the J-Gurlz and Rach and had a lot of fun being stupid. I got to try out my new camera from Christmas and Rach and I looked ravishing in our wedding/new years attire. haha it was fun to get ready and it was fun to just mess around until ungodly hours and destroy our hotel room in the process. overall: it was just fun. as if I haven't used that word enough. oh and I got an amazing blackmail picture of jacob and justin. SCORE.
I'm gonna stay eighteen forever
So we can stay like this forever
And we'll never miss a party
cause we keep them going constantly
And we'll never have to listen
to anyone about anything
cause it's all been done and it's all been said
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get.
I'm truly blessed to live the life I live and I guess, not as a new years revolution (as Chris would call it) but just as a life goal, I'd like to be more appreciative and less cynical. lofty I know, but essential I think to making myself a little happier. I mean, driving through New Orleans and seeing the destruction kinda woke me up to the material blessings I have, and spending time with people who care for me or at least talking on the phone to people I care about while I was gone woke me up to the non-material blessings I have. I get into ruts sometime, and I become unhappy, but overall I do still have some things to be thankful for and maybe I should try harder to realize them.
side note: music is amazing. and people with beautiful voices astound me. I love listening and singing and feeling the pulse of songs within my own beating heart. nothing is quite like it.
there are still some things to be resolved and some questions that still linger. but I think this weekend helped in a lot of ways. it helped things within my mind and with people I was with just as much as it helped things with people who weren't in "bama." I have some things I want to do and people I want to see/talk to, and hopefully I can resolve everything else within the next few weeks.
if i fall in the end, will you be holding on to me?
because you, you said you'd never leave me
the choice is up to you
to find out what to do
to let it go or keep kicking me to the side
i'm getting tired of your shit
and i can't deal with it
i gave up giving in, and now it's time to say goodbye
you can blame all the lyrics on the fact that I have my music on random and some songs with relevant lyrics have been popping up...hm yah. I'll blame it on that instead of the fact that I'm running on just a few hours of sleep. sounds good.
They come and go, love (Come and go, but they, but they)
But they're all the same (D-da, d-da, da da, da da)
Even big, bad bad-boys get scared at night
It keeps them safe. (At home baby)
I'm gonna throw this rock down (Gonna throw it down, let it roll)
Tonight's the night (Tonight)
I'm gonna go out, fire it up, honey (I'm gonna lose 'em when I)
Gonna turn back time.