you gave it all away before you could lose it...

[cangsta]

I haven't been on the computer much recently. to be completely honest, I havent been doing much of anything really. I've been wasting away my days watching movies I've seen a trillion times and either working on my scrapbook or ignoring real life and the things I need to get done over the break that I pretty much have no desire to start. I guess I still have awhile to procrastinate but next week will be depressing because I'll realize that the break's almost over and that I actually need to get to work. *sigh* for now though, I'll continue to sleep too much which ironically makes me even more tired and gives me the urge to sleep even longer each morning. the true me is surfacing: lazy like no other. haha but at least you can be lazy and still get into college. I got my acceptance letter for notre dame and now the only challenge is seeing how much money I can get in scholarships. I hate writing freaking essays but I guess I need to start working now. and I thought applying would be the hard part. eh... Christmas should be good though. I know a lot of what I'm getting but I know I have at least one big surprise under the tree and I can't wait. I think it may be tickets to something on Broadway or something... and from the sounds of it, good seats. I'll have to see though, and with what I know I'm getting, Christmas is already going to be good. I still have a lot of presents to deliver and especially presents for my parents to wrap. I spent so much money today though and even though I know it's for a good cause, it's hard to part with over a hundred bucks when you don't have a job or any source of income to cover that kind of expense. man, I think I do need to find a job, or at least find one I can start after Christmas and New Years are over. on that note, I hope I have fun in Alabama for the wedding on New Years Eve. I dunno how it's gonna go and how much fun I'll have, but I hope it's good. bleh, I went and saw RENT again tonight and while it was fun to sing along, I'm pretty tired. plus I need medicine and some water. it's kinda annoying how much sinuses flare up in the middle of the night, even when you're not sleeping.

ambitious thoughts is that all you've got
as for you, you spin a story like a spider spins a web
see that's a metaphor, no wait, a simile,
I'm still learning but I think I'm getting better,
oh if I'm not tortured how are you ever going to relate
I've been condemned by those I love,
wishing me the worst as I try my best.