there's so much more than empty conversations...filled with empty words...
I know that, with the exception of a few people, no one will know what I'm talking about, but I'm gonna write this anyway.
If you've ever been at Land of My Grandfathers (I told you this would apply to a select few), you know that for every step you take, about a million grasshoppers fly past you. Some get out of your way, which is their goal, yet some of the less fortunate fly straight into you. That's kinda like what my journey has been like, and staffing Journey this weekend has kind of solidified my beliefs. For every step I take in Christ, there is a reaction. If I step towards Him I find reconciliation, and if I step away, I find despair. It's what I've come to expect. What I noticed this weekend though, is that the faster I walk forward and the harder my feet hit the ground, the more obstacles move out of my way. There are always some obstacles that seem to head towards me and run into me with full force, but compared to the magnitude I remove from my path, they're trivial. When I run on this walk with Christ, my life, this trail I follow, seems so much easier and my path so much more clear. When I take great stride forward and experience God in the magnitude I did this weekend, every other part of my life improves: my mood, my relationships with family and friends, and my overall strength and confidence. I needed this weekend as much as I needed last weekend. God prepared me for this retreat by allowing me to regain focus last weekend. He got me moving again, or maybe just kept me from remaining still and leaning back, waiting to stumble in that direction. I feel renewed, awakened, alive. I know I'll come down from this high.. but not just yet. I need to feel this way for awhile first.
and to my small group and everyone else who spent this weekend with me: thank you and I love you. you've inspired me so much.
If you've ever been at Land of My Grandfathers (I told you this would apply to a select few), you know that for every step you take, about a million grasshoppers fly past you. Some get out of your way, which is their goal, yet some of the less fortunate fly straight into you. That's kinda like what my journey has been like, and staffing Journey this weekend has kind of solidified my beliefs. For every step I take in Christ, there is a reaction. If I step towards Him I find reconciliation, and if I step away, I find despair. It's what I've come to expect. What I noticed this weekend though, is that the faster I walk forward and the harder my feet hit the ground, the more obstacles move out of my way. There are always some obstacles that seem to head towards me and run into me with full force, but compared to the magnitude I remove from my path, they're trivial. When I run on this walk with Christ, my life, this trail I follow, seems so much easier and my path so much more clear. When I take great stride forward and experience God in the magnitude I did this weekend, every other part of my life improves: my mood, my relationships with family and friends, and my overall strength and confidence. I needed this weekend as much as I needed last weekend. God prepared me for this retreat by allowing me to regain focus last weekend. He got me moving again, or maybe just kept me from remaining still and leaning back, waiting to stumble in that direction. I feel renewed, awakened, alive. I know I'll come down from this high.. but not just yet. I need to feel this way for awhile first.
and to my small group and everyone else who spent this weekend with me: thank you and I love you. you've inspired me so much.