this town seems hardly worth our time
(epilogue)
Mandy & Julie & Kelleh & i don't know how many others even remember my death (or how many still read this)(the ones i named in particular have been causing me some pain lately):
if it wouldn't be completely meaningless, i would apologise right here & now. i did a lot of terrible things to a lot of people (maybe you don't consider yourself one, or maybe i didn't pawn half your shit) as a drug addict, & if it could possibly mean anything, i want you to know that i don't want to go back again. i want you to know that i am currently seeking counseling, & i have it it mind to go to NA as soon as i can get over myself
(i am so tired, i haven't slept in years)
& i have fried the ceratonin receptors in my brain so bad, i am going to be on some pretty hardcore antidepressants. i have come to be a believer in modern medicine. since lithium.
(aside.
Reynard says "FUCK YOU CUNT! SOME OF US HAVE TO ATONE FOR THE TERRIBLE SINS WE COMMITED ON OUR BRAINS-
SOME OF US DON'T GET PROZAC & SUICIDE WATCH VIP TREATMENT WHEN WE GO TO JAIL YOU LITTLE BITCH!!!")
thank you, Rey Rey. i consider myself reminded of how fortunant i really am.
in all seriousness i meant that
well. it looks like i have an unavoidable brilliant life in front of me,
can i count you in?
Mandy & Julie & Kelleh & i don't know how many others even remember my death (or how many still read this)(the ones i named in particular have been causing me some pain lately):
if it wouldn't be completely meaningless, i would apologise right here & now. i did a lot of terrible things to a lot of people (maybe you don't consider yourself one, or maybe i didn't pawn half your shit) as a drug addict, & if it could possibly mean anything, i want you to know that i don't want to go back again. i want you to know that i am currently seeking counseling, & i have it it mind to go to NA as soon as i can get over myself
(i am so tired, i haven't slept in years)
& i have fried the ceratonin receptors in my brain so bad, i am going to be on some pretty hardcore antidepressants. i have come to be a believer in modern medicine. since lithium.
(aside.
Reynard says "FUCK YOU CUNT! SOME OF US HAVE TO ATONE FOR THE TERRIBLE SINS WE COMMITED ON OUR BRAINS-
SOME OF US DON'T GET PROZAC & SUICIDE WATCH VIP TREATMENT WHEN WE GO TO JAIL YOU LITTLE BITCH!!!")
thank you, Rey Rey. i consider myself reminded of how fortunant i really am.
in all seriousness i meant that
well. it looks like i have an unavoidable brilliant life in front of me,
can i count you in?