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well here it is....3:34 am....after a night of unsuccessful attempts at trying to have fun...i come back to my floor...a floor made up of potheads, loners, *ssholes, pr*cks, alcoholics, and me....the nice guy....right now, i am completely confused as to the way of the world....i don't understand why whenever i come across a female i find to be a potential candidate for what will most likely end up a potential heart break...there's always someone else there to jump the gun and take things away from me....i'm fed up....i really am...i'm tired of being so f*cking nice and not getting shit in return except for pain, abuse, and usage...i'm tired of it...girls don't know what respect is..none of them...i'm sorry you girls, i know you're different. but all the rest: forget about it i'm sick of this sh*t...i don't deserve to hurt so much...yet for whatever reason, i always run back...down here...get this...i've not met one virgin...NOT A SINGLE FEMALE VIRGIN...which says to me...that its the same guys who are goin around corrupting these innocent (sometimes not so innocent) deserving girls...so many wonderful girls i've met who've wasted themselves on the tragedy that is the typical male...that which i am not...i do not meet a girl, tell her what she wants to hear...allow her to warm up to me...make her feel safe and comforted...take what i want, and go....i'm not that guy.....on the opposite end of the spectrum however, i'm neither that guy who shares my same views; yet has that charisma that draws girls in...girls of all kinds...the nice ones...the skanky ones...the lost and confused ones...i don't really know what i'm saying right now...but whatever it is, i know it hurts inside....i'm fed up with everything...school, believe it or not, is the one stable constant in my life...and i like that....but girls...the most saddeningly dynamic issue...always has been..always will be...what will i do...will i ever learn...i don't know...i hope so...until then...i don't really know...i will always wonder tho...thank you all for listening...i love you all... - ME