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this week has been one long blur
there's just so many things on my mind from day to day
that i can hardly keep track anymore
and it's just getting to be too much
i was going to quit working at little caesar's by the end of october
but it seems to me that it might be a little too long to wait
october just seems so busy
homecoming week was this week
and im working all next week
i have to start filling out college apps and get that off my chest
and then work on scholarships after that
then im retaking act's at the end of october
and there's simply too much to do
i'm acting like im a 40 year old and trying to do everything on my own
and i think i give up now.
i'm 17, about to be 18
and there's no use in putting so much stress on myself now
because then i'll just get high blood pressure and probobly work 20 times harder when i'm older
and then i'll never be happy
i need to find a new way to ensure my independence
because im missing out on all the good times i could be having right now
and thats no fun
but on top of all this busy lifestyle, i have homework up the wazoo
meloche gives crazy amounts that i can hardly keep up with because i procrastinate until i absolutely have to finish it all
and did i mention that i dont like little caesars?
because now that mikes gone, i really dont enjoy it that much anymore
there are too many amores working there
and everyone is all about drama drama drama
and drama is the last extra thing i need on a full schedule.
so now i just have to find some courage in me to quit
and find my boss one day?
because i dont really see him that much
but yeah
homecoming was fun
for the most part
i think t could have been better
and i just put too much stress leading up to it
that i didnt really care about it that much when it was happening
i dont know whats wrong with me
i think i'm just too out of touch with things that its hard for me to feel emotion anymore
kind of hard to explain i guess?
i just want a fresh start
and a little break here and there
but from now on, practice will be cut an hour shorter
so i can have some extra time to do things
not much but every little bit helps
and we have thursday off school and a half day friday
so this week is looking pretty nice :]
omg and my room is a mess
i can hardly bear to be in my house anymore because its disgusting to me
blehhhhhhhhhhhh
okay i need to chill out
homecoming was pretty fun
i went with kyle and we went with julie and robinson and some people
it was fun :]
would have been better if i didnt do the whole in a daze thing all week though
oh well
the afterparty was fun too
haha
okay im going
i hope pattie moranaise is happy. :]
there's just so many things on my mind from day to day
that i can hardly keep track anymore
and it's just getting to be too much
i was going to quit working at little caesar's by the end of october
but it seems to me that it might be a little too long to wait
october just seems so busy
homecoming week was this week
and im working all next week
i have to start filling out college apps and get that off my chest
and then work on scholarships after that
then im retaking act's at the end of october
and there's simply too much to do
i'm acting like im a 40 year old and trying to do everything on my own
and i think i give up now.
i'm 17, about to be 18
and there's no use in putting so much stress on myself now
because then i'll just get high blood pressure and probobly work 20 times harder when i'm older
and then i'll never be happy
i need to find a new way to ensure my independence
because im missing out on all the good times i could be having right now
and thats no fun
but on top of all this busy lifestyle, i have homework up the wazoo
meloche gives crazy amounts that i can hardly keep up with because i procrastinate until i absolutely have to finish it all
and did i mention that i dont like little caesars?
because now that mikes gone, i really dont enjoy it that much anymore
there are too many amores working there
and everyone is all about drama drama drama
and drama is the last extra thing i need on a full schedule.
so now i just have to find some courage in me to quit
and find my boss one day?
because i dont really see him that much
but yeah
homecoming was fun
for the most part
i think t could have been better
and i just put too much stress leading up to it
that i didnt really care about it that much when it was happening
i dont know whats wrong with me
i think i'm just too out of touch with things that its hard for me to feel emotion anymore
kind of hard to explain i guess?
i just want a fresh start
and a little break here and there
but from now on, practice will be cut an hour shorter
so i can have some extra time to do things
not much but every little bit helps
and we have thursday off school and a half day friday
so this week is looking pretty nice :]
omg and my room is a mess
i can hardly bear to be in my house anymore because its disgusting to me
blehhhhhhhhhhhh
okay i need to chill out
homecoming was pretty fun
i went with kyle and we went with julie and robinson and some people
it was fun :]
would have been better if i didnt do the whole in a daze thing all week though
oh well
the afterparty was fun too
haha
okay im going
i hope pattie moranaise is happy. :]