Hey what's up god?
Dear Nobody,
I haven't written in a while which I could explain to you, but I'd rather not. I guess I could tell you what has been going on and stuff, but I'd rather not get too into to that. I will tell you this: everything is okay and mediocre, I am not happy (not sad), I am getting to a point where drinking like I used to seems like a good plan (that I hope to ****** I won't pursue), and that I am realizing a lot of different things. I feel like I am becoming more knowledgeable in subjects that matter, and in this gaining of knowledge I feel I am gaining a great sense of paranoia. I think this is why I keep staying up kind of late. Oh well, thats boring news, isn't it?
Now is where I tell you about something that might be more interesting. I have recently met yet another girl who I find attractive (not in just a physical way). This person is pretty. She is sweet and honest. I have not known her very long which is another thing that makes me feel like history will again repeat itself. Although I haven't known her that long, I feel that I like and care about her. I am drawn to her for some reason that is beyond the obvious reasons that I believe I have already stated. This reason that I am drawn to her feels bigger and better, but I don't know what to make of it. I would like to spend some time with her as would she with me, but I would not like to hurt her. I am tired of hurting people. I feel like I do it all the time which rips me up because I have only pure (I should settle for good) intentions.
I want this girl to change me and this cycle I have fallen into with these types of relationships. I feel that although my eyes have been opened by unrelated experiences, they are still not wide. I believe I will have true vision only at the very tail end of my life. I want to see more, maybe get one eye fully open. I need help because this is a task that I can't do alone. I feel that the sappy fucker I call me wants this girl to help me. And, if this certain girl happens to read this know that I am not a creep, I just think too clearly at night.
I don't want to get too carried away because I will end up saying to much then eventually saying something that I don't really mean. But do know, all I have said thus far is true. I'm not much of a liar. I am much a coward with nerves of aluminum. I am as tuff as nails and as easy to penetrate as gelatin. I love you Nobody. Thank you for always listening.
Yours forever,
Austin
I haven't written in a while which I could explain to you, but I'd rather not. I guess I could tell you what has been going on and stuff, but I'd rather not get too into to that. I will tell you this: everything is okay and mediocre, I am not happy (not sad), I am getting to a point where drinking like I used to seems like a good plan (that I hope to ****** I won't pursue), and that I am realizing a lot of different things. I feel like I am becoming more knowledgeable in subjects that matter, and in this gaining of knowledge I feel I am gaining a great sense of paranoia. I think this is why I keep staying up kind of late. Oh well, thats boring news, isn't it?
Now is where I tell you about something that might be more interesting. I have recently met yet another girl who I find attractive (not in just a physical way). This person is pretty. She is sweet and honest. I have not known her very long which is another thing that makes me feel like history will again repeat itself. Although I haven't known her that long, I feel that I like and care about her. I am drawn to her for some reason that is beyond the obvious reasons that I believe I have already stated. This reason that I am drawn to her feels bigger and better, but I don't know what to make of it. I would like to spend some time with her as would she with me, but I would not like to hurt her. I am tired of hurting people. I feel like I do it all the time which rips me up because I have only pure (I should settle for good) intentions.
I want this girl to change me and this cycle I have fallen into with these types of relationships. I feel that although my eyes have been opened by unrelated experiences, they are still not wide. I believe I will have true vision only at the very tail end of my life. I want to see more, maybe get one eye fully open. I need help because this is a task that I can't do alone. I feel that the sappy fucker I call me wants this girl to help me. And, if this certain girl happens to read this know that I am not a creep, I just think too clearly at night.
I don't want to get too carried away because I will end up saying to much then eventually saying something that I don't really mean. But do know, all I have said thus far is true. I'm not much of a liar. I am much a coward with nerves of aluminum. I am as tuff as nails and as easy to penetrate as gelatin. I love you Nobody. Thank you for always listening.
Yours forever,
Austin