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From Aug. 4th - yesterday I went to Maine with Jen. I know I had planned a "Movie Date" for Aug. 5th before I went. Truthfully, I had already planned to go to Maine (July 1st) before I planned the movies, but I had forgotten and called everyone and planned it anyways. It was my mistake....but I can't regret going camping on the beach VS. a night at the movies.
I know that ppl have gotten mad or whatever...and I'm sick and tired of bending over backwards for this movie thing. I love going to the movies, and I'm sad that we didn't go, it's just that I had bigger plans. This probally has something to do with the whole "Justine is changing issue" that was discussed before...but I'm going to lay it all out on the table:
1) YES - I blew off the movies
2) EVERYONE - who complained about how I don't hang out with them anymore; never tried to plan something with me that I know of.
3) YES - I'm upset w/the fact that we didn't go to the movies...I <3 the movies! Why else would I have planned it numerous times before?
4) YES - Ever since I became friends with Jen everyone has put me under the microscope, don't deny it.
5) YES - I still wanna keep all of my friends...but a friendship is a 2 person thing.
You know what? So far I've had an AWESOME summer! Do you know what else? I was NEVER HOME:
June 21 ~ Out of school
June 23 - July 1 ~ camping
July 2 - July 8th ~ Grammas in Terryville
July 9 ~ Tennis tournament
July 10 - July 16 ~ Tennis camp in Mass.
July 17 - July 22 ~ Field Hockey Camp
July 23 - July 29 ~ 6 Days home...the only 6 all summer so far, would you want to do something or sit at home?
July 30 + 31 ~ All day tennis tournaments at Yale (Pilot Pen Family Classic)
August 1 - 3 ~ Church help/activites
August 4 - August 9 ~ Camping in Maine
So now what? I shouldn't have planned the movies, but I wanted to TRY and fit it in...Does everyone expect me to have everything perfect? I know I messed up by putting the movie date on the 5th...I guess I should have made those couple phone calls and called everyone...I did have that journal entry though. Bleh.
I've always hated change, and there's only a couple ppl I know who like it...but w/e. I did make different friends. Either ppl can accept it or they can't. I'm the same person: peoples outlooks towards me have changed, not me. I've had time to think, and I've come to the conclusion that I can't change what ppl think of me, and I don't think that having a new friend can completly change someone either. Sunday I'm leaving again for another damn camping trip to Burlinggame with my family for who knows how long.
I'm not mad or depressed. I miss ppl...especially Jackie, Kelly, Stine, and Brit...but I can't set back time and I can't undo anything.
My trip to Maine? AWESOME! I met 4 guys named Nick (*sexy*), Chris, Matt, and Andrew. We met the last 2 days I was there, so we didn't get to hang out much, but when we did it was fun. The beach was a 5 min. walk away, so we all went down there a lot. At night, we were the only ones there and it was so beautiful. We went on the beach everyday (which is surprising to me because I hate the beach). We took our shoes off and walked in the water to the boardwalk. They had a lil carnival which was lame as hell! Jen and I were like the only 2 there! Lol. They had a Diary Quenn (yesss) and an arcade. We played DDR all the time! Lol. We got real good at it. It was really fun.
So ya..that was my long entry. And just so anyone who reads it knows (since when you write online no one can hear the tone of your voice) I'm not angry or mad or anything. I'm all calm and stuff. :) I'm not bothered and I hope this dosent seem like I'm mad or anything!
Picture: (Left Bottom - Top) Jen, Chris (white hoodie), Nick (sexy beast), Andrew (ewwy) - I took the picture! Lol.
