i don't know

[candyskull]

there's no real reason i'm posting here. i still think it's a waste of time, but i have this feeling that i'm really dead. that i died back in a hosipital back in nc, and this is all some glorious halucination that's being pulled out of the "wants and fantisies" part of my brain. the following song has nothing to do with that, but it seems to fit.

When I was young I was the nicest guy I knew
I thought I was the chosen one
But time went by and I found out a thing or two
My shine wore off as time wore on
I thought that I was living out the perfect life
But in the lonely hours when the truth begins to bite
I thought about the times when I turned my back & stalled

I ain't no nice guy after all

When I was young I was the only game in town
I thought I had it down for sure,
But time went by and I was lost in what I found
The reasons blurred, the way unsure
I thought that I was living life the only way
But as I saw that life was more than day to day
I turned around, I read the writing on the wall

I ain't no nice guy after all
I ain't no nice guy after all

In all the years you spend between your birth and death
You find there's lots of times you should have saved your breath
It comes as quite a shock when that trip leads to fall

I ain't no nice guy after all