just another shitty day.

[candymaker]

here's the story: after my class, i went to SM and bought some ingredients because i'm planning to cook "xave's famous tuna and cheese pasta". while cooking the so called pasta, my sister told me ( the term's told, not asked ) to make it fast because she's hungry and she wants a taste of my pasta. so, the pasta's ready, then my mother got inside with her line "ba't andami naman nyan?" and i just ignored her. but she won't give up. she added, "inaaway ka na nga, pakakainin mo pa." and FORTUNATELY, my very loving, sweet sister heard her and answered her "eh di wag nyang pakainin.". just when we're getting along well ( which happens VERY often ), my mother had to go open her mouth. it would feel really good just to look at them while i'm having my delicious dish but really... giving them a dose of their own medicine is like eating my favorite chocolate but i'll be just like them. selfish. self-centered. and they're the people i hated the most. and it would be very absurd to hate people when you're exactly their reflection.

i don't want to be like them. and i don't want to hate myself.