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can anyone help me find a new lj layout? this one isn't so hott anymore. please help. i'll give you a dollar..=)
so my dad won't take us to the store until the storm goes away. this always happens. we ALWAYS have to wait until the stupid storm goes away until we can leave to go somewhere. it's so stupid you don't understand. i haven't been eating much lately. i don't know why. well, actually i do. i just don't feel like eating. hm..what else is going on around here.. melissa really likes will. they always want to hang out with each other but melissa said she's not going to hang out with him unless i'm with her..which i kind of don't understand because when i'm with them i just get left out so what's the point in hanging out with them? i don't know about drum lessons.. i'm suppose to be practicing but i'm just not in the mood too. and that really makes me upset because i want to be a great drummer but i just don't feel like doing anything. yes, i'm lazy. that's it. also, the whole permit thing, i'm so scared to go back because i'm scared i'm going to fail it again even if i read the whole book over and over again. i wish i was smart so i could just pass it and not be in ese classes and have real friends. lauren is going to braden river this year. man.. i really hope she doesn't start shit. i'm not going to. i'm going to be the bigger person and make her feel stupid because she'll be the immature one starting shit so..yeah. i really don't like her. there's nothing to do. i really want to go to the store and get some fudge. man.. do i love fudge or what? that's the only thing that's been on my mind for the past few days. i can't help it. it's sooooooooooooooooooooo good! i don't know how to express my feelings with melissa anymore. i want to tell her how i feel. like all my feelings that are stuck inside me that i just want get out that i can't think of all the time. sometimes i just want her to leave but i really don't. i'm too scared to be alone if she leaves. and i'll have no one to trip with in my room over everything that's on the floor. and no one to laugh at when they trip over things..(melissa). okay well the stupid storm didn't even come (yes!) so now we're going to the store. bye.
.:: lisa ::.