I know, girl, and I've been thinking about this for a long time-- even last year during this time. Maybe it's just a hard time of year for me... I don't know. What I do know is that I haven't been happy here for a long time. The only class I actually enjoy is my conducting class. I don't like conducting styles here in the band program. I don't really feel like I've been learning anything all semester.
I'm not sure I'm running away though, either.... Because really? i don't have many problems. I'm extremely lucky to have the life I do. And besides a tiny bit of drama, things are okay. It's just been a long time since I've been happy. And maybe, I won't be happy anywhere- maybe I'm depressed and I need to see a therapist again. (Which.... is what my mom thinks, so maybe I should look into it.)
I haven't decided yet, but it's definitely in the front of my head, instead of on the back burners.... I need to discuss it with my parents and pray about it and make sure I'm making the right decision before I actually do something hasty.
I've been saying all semester long that the only things keeping me here is SAI and Dr Casey. Okay, and maybe Drew, since he's slowly becoming my best friend. I dunno.... we'll see what happens.
I'm not sure I'm running away though, either.... Because really? i don't have many problems. I'm extremely lucky to have the life I do. And besides a tiny bit of drama, things are okay. It's just been a long time since I've been happy. And maybe, I won't be happy anywhere- maybe I'm depressed and I need to see a therapist again. (Which.... is what my mom thinks, so maybe I should look into it.)
I haven't decided yet, but it's definitely in the front of my head, instead of on the back burners.... I need to discuss it with my parents and pray about it and make sure I'm making the right decision before I actually do something hasty.
I've been saying all semester long that the only things keeping me here is SAI and Dr Casey. Okay, and maybe Drew, since he's slowly becoming my best friend. I dunno.... we'll see what happens.
I'm sure we'll talk about this more on Friday :)
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