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I don't like to have conflicting feelings about Shaun.
Some days, I can't stand him.
I feel like he needs to grow up and stop being such a boy.
Like he needs to have a good example of what a man is in his life.
(which is a horrible, yet true, thing to say, since his dad died when he was little)
But somedays...
He makes me laugh when no one else does.
He can charm me like few others can.
But he's crazy and can't focus and doesn't give me the attention I deserve.
PLUS
He just got out of a "really bad" relationship with some girl.
And I am not about to get involved in that baggage.
He swears he's completely over her and wants nothing to do with her.
But, she calls all the time.
She wants him back. blah blah blah.
it's stupid HS BS, really.
He says he can't just delete her from his life- because you can't do that right away to someone you "loved"
--his words, not mine.
I just really don't get it.
I don't even know WHY I like him.
I've spoken to some of the active PMAs.
they have mixed feelings for him as well.
Some of the people I love the most hate him.
Some of the people whose opinion I value love him and want me to date him.
He's really concerned about Drew in my life.
He's concerned I'm going to just make out with Drew and date Drew if Shaun and I ever date.
But Friday night, he got really stupid drunk and made out with some girl.
Thanks for those double standards.
Oh well.
We'll see how it pans out.
I'm not really looking for anything and I'm not really interested in dating anyone at all.
I'm happy with where I am.
(Or maybe scared- I haven't decided yet.)
<3
Some days, I can't stand him.
I feel like he needs to grow up and stop being such a boy.
Like he needs to have a good example of what a man is in his life.
(which is a horrible, yet true, thing to say, since his dad died when he was little)
But somedays...
He makes me laugh when no one else does.
He can charm me like few others can.
But he's crazy and can't focus and doesn't give me the attention I deserve.
PLUS
He just got out of a "really bad" relationship with some girl.
And I am not about to get involved in that baggage.
He swears he's completely over her and wants nothing to do with her.
But, she calls all the time.
She wants him back. blah blah blah.
it's stupid HS BS, really.
He says he can't just delete her from his life- because you can't do that right away to someone you "loved"
--his words, not mine.
I just really don't get it.
I don't even know WHY I like him.
I've spoken to some of the active PMAs.
they have mixed feelings for him as well.
Some of the people I love the most hate him.
Some of the people whose opinion I value love him and want me to date him.
He's really concerned about Drew in my life.
He's concerned I'm going to just make out with Drew and date Drew if Shaun and I ever date.
But Friday night, he got really stupid drunk and made out with some girl.
Thanks for those double standards.
Oh well.
We'll see how it pans out.
I'm not really looking for anything and I'm not really interested in dating anyone at all.
I'm happy with where I am.
(Or maybe scared- I haven't decided yet.)
<3