Take care and don't go to far, I will miss you so...
This morning i had a rude awakening...
my life is changed forever. things will never be as they were again and i hate it so much. i hate that i dont have my old life back. most of all i hate that he doesnt give a fuck if i lived or died at this point. i know im starting to bother everyone but this is the worst pain i have ever been in. i hate how when im trying to tell him how i feel the only response i get is "whatever i dont give a damn anymore." its like having a knife jammed in your heart and then twisted so that it will never heal. i feel so unworthy of everything right now and its so hard when someone who you have been through so much with just stops caring about you completely. i dont know what i did to deserve this... all i did was care about him and in return i get hurt. he tryed to tell me so many times that he was different but i dont see that at all... hes just like all of the others where if i died tomorrow i MIGHT get an "aww too bad" and then they go on with their lives as if i never existed. i guess i deserve it because i opened up and i let someone i really cared about into my life. i believe that everything happens for a reason... but i just cant figure out the reason for this. i keep hoping that one day ill wake up and the phone will ring and he will be on the other end of the line to say good morning and to ask me if i wanted to do something today. but i know that i will never have that again no matter what i do. i want so bad to be happy right now. i want him to care about me. but its all a fucking pipe dream. it will never come true and i know i need to accept that but nobody realises how difficult this is for me. he says that dumping me was the hardest thing he has ever done but i dont see any evidence of that... all i see is someone who doesnt care... just like the others. everything good that ever happens to me just gets taken away... so i wonder what next will be taken out of my life that i really love... what next?
I believe in heaven and know
that I should just accept it all
So content with the paths that I walk on
surely I should see it all
So take care and don't go too far,
I will miss you so
When the distance grows
and the nights are long
and your scared at times
and you wonder why
Take care and don't go too far
I will miss you so
I've looked into the sky a hundred times
and I've seen the stars that shine so bright
I'm sure that one of them is you, my friend
Watching and waiting and hoping that
I'll be alright
So take care and don't go too far
I will miss you so
And when the distance grows
and the nights are long
and you're scared at times
and you wonder why
Take care and don't go too far
I will miss you so
I believe in heaven and know
that I should just accept it all
So content with the paths that I walk on
surely I should see it all
So take care and don't go to far,
I will miss you so
When the distance grows
and the nights are long
and your scared at times
and you wonder why
Take care and don't go too far
The road back home is shorter than you know
my life is changed forever. things will never be as they were again and i hate it so much. i hate that i dont have my old life back. most of all i hate that he doesnt give a fuck if i lived or died at this point. i know im starting to bother everyone but this is the worst pain i have ever been in. i hate how when im trying to tell him how i feel the only response i get is "whatever i dont give a damn anymore." its like having a knife jammed in your heart and then twisted so that it will never heal. i feel so unworthy of everything right now and its so hard when someone who you have been through so much with just stops caring about you completely. i dont know what i did to deserve this... all i did was care about him and in return i get hurt. he tryed to tell me so many times that he was different but i dont see that at all... hes just like all of the others where if i died tomorrow i MIGHT get an "aww too bad" and then they go on with their lives as if i never existed. i guess i deserve it because i opened up and i let someone i really cared about into my life. i believe that everything happens for a reason... but i just cant figure out the reason for this. i keep hoping that one day ill wake up and the phone will ring and he will be on the other end of the line to say good morning and to ask me if i wanted to do something today. but i know that i will never have that again no matter what i do. i want so bad to be happy right now. i want him to care about me. but its all a fucking pipe dream. it will never come true and i know i need to accept that but nobody realises how difficult this is for me. he says that dumping me was the hardest thing he has ever done but i dont see any evidence of that... all i see is someone who doesnt care... just like the others. everything good that ever happens to me just gets taken away... so i wonder what next will be taken out of my life that i really love... what next?
I believe in heaven and know
that I should just accept it all
So content with the paths that I walk on
surely I should see it all
So take care and don't go too far,
I will miss you so
When the distance grows
and the nights are long
and your scared at times
and you wonder why
Take care and don't go too far
I will miss you so
I've looked into the sky a hundred times
and I've seen the stars that shine so bright
I'm sure that one of them is you, my friend
Watching and waiting and hoping that
I'll be alright
So take care and don't go too far
I will miss you so
And when the distance grows
and the nights are long
and you're scared at times
and you wonder why
Take care and don't go too far
I will miss you so
I believe in heaven and know
that I should just accept it all
So content with the paths that I walk on
surely I should see it all
So take care and don't go to far,
I will miss you so
When the distance grows
and the nights are long
and your scared at times
and you wonder why
Take care and don't go too far
The road back home is shorter than you know