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Life is so weird.
every day when i get up... i look at things so much more differently now. its like i have a new appreciation for what i have rather than worrying about what i dont have. i guess you could say i just want to be happy, and i just want to live. i want to be able to breathe again... one hit after another and i havent fully healed. i want so bad to step back, look at my life the way it is and say "i am truly happy". i lost robbie... that was so hard because he was so much a part of my life for 2 years. when he broke up with me its like a part of me left too. i felt so empty and then i turned to those who i knew would help me pick up the pieces again... my friends. breann was one who helped SOOO SOOO much and i miss her so much. she was always happy for me when something good happened and always there when i was sad. what a perfect person... what a perfect friend. i never realised how good i had it, or how much support i had until now that is. she and all of my other friends helped heal that wound that robbie left in me, and they were there to listen and love me just as i love them. when breann died... that wound was re-opened... only deeper. she helped so much to heal it but then her death has only made it sting worse. it hurt so bad to be at prom without her and i cryed so much that day. i dont know... im just thankful for everything i have now... im thankful that i still have the friends that i do and i wouldnt trade them for anything. i love you guys!
oh yeah and look at these hot pictures from lunch one day:
every day when i get up... i look at things so much more differently now. its like i have a new appreciation for what i have rather than worrying about what i dont have. i guess you could say i just want to be happy, and i just want to live. i want to be able to breathe again... one hit after another and i havent fully healed. i want so bad to step back, look at my life the way it is and say "i am truly happy". i lost robbie... that was so hard because he was so much a part of my life for 2 years. when he broke up with me its like a part of me left too. i felt so empty and then i turned to those who i knew would help me pick up the pieces again... my friends. breann was one who helped SOOO SOOO much and i miss her so much. she was always happy for me when something good happened and always there when i was sad. what a perfect person... what a perfect friend. i never realised how good i had it, or how much support i had until now that is. she and all of my other friends helped heal that wound that robbie left in me, and they were there to listen and love me just as i love them. when breann died... that wound was re-opened... only deeper. she helped so much to heal it but then her death has only made it sting worse. it hurt so bad to be at prom without her and i cryed so much that day. i dont know... im just thankful for everything i have now... im thankful that i still have the friends that i do and i wouldnt trade them for anything. i love you guys!
oh yeah and look at these hot pictures from lunch one day: