surround me in glitter

[candyglitter]

it hit me seconds before my head hit the pillow
something wasnt right, again.

surround me in glitter
don't let me forget what it feels like,
to feel.
let me know you are there
when you are miles away.
i want to drown as a shinning star
not a burnt out has been.

dont forget my name
"just dont forget my name" i've always said
but i buried it all, to have you.
what i thought, was my answer.
apparently it was a trick question.

my savior, the solution.

this is not what you want.
and i'm still chasing someone that will never come home.

it's not heartbreak if they never leave.
and i cant get mad if you stay and pretend to care.

spoiled kids don't care if they break their toys.
they know.
they will always get a new one.

somehow your carlessness has found away
to bring me back to my knees.
this was it, this is all i came in with.
without a word you trashed what was left of me.
defenseless.

cover my head with the blanket
i just want to be somewhere else.