Things I've been thinking about while waiting for Yuletide nominations to clear
My icon is NW Forever so it's ironic that I've been considering retiring from the New Warriors fandom.
I've loved this fictional team for twenty-five years (I'm so fucking old) so it's no small decision but I'm just not feeling it anymore. I already left that forum full of diehard male readers assholes who had to nitpick everything I posted. AO3 doesn't generate much. A look at the latest couple of fics on ff.net? *shudders*
We're almost at the one year anniversary of the volume five series ending, it had so much promise but didn't quite click with readers for whatever reason, I loved those dorks.
What got me to this point though, was seeing a New Warriors story linked in yesterday's comictore_news - that is exciting, believe me, the fandom is stagnant so new fic is a treasure. It was slashy porn. Not only was it porn but it was boring porn with every cliche in the book, something I might write and I'm a terrible porn writer and should never be allowed to write it again. PWP is supposed to be exactly that but does it have to be so formulaic? It checked too many boxes in the wrong list. Hate-sex, dub-con. Just ick really.
The last few fics in the fandom have been PWP in English and Russian, one schmoopy slash fic, (a death fic written for me), and that Freaky Friday story I started for Mitch. There was an interesting AU where Vance never joined the team and ended up with the X-Men but that's stalled.
God, it's all so boring except any story written for me, those are nuggets of pure sweet gold.
Retiring from a dead fandom doesn't seem like a big thing but it's my comfy fandom blankey, and I've been clinging to it too long. We all stay with fandoms for our own reasons but those reasons don't stack up for me anymore.
I've loved this fictional team for twenty-five years (I'm so fucking old) so it's no small decision but I'm just not feeling it anymore. I already left that forum full of diehard male readers assholes who had to nitpick everything I posted. AO3 doesn't generate much. A look at the latest couple of fics on ff.net? *shudders*
We're almost at the one year anniversary of the volume five series ending, it had so much promise but didn't quite click with readers for whatever reason, I loved those dorks.
What got me to this point though, was seeing a New Warriors story linked in yesterday's comictore_news - that is exciting, believe me, the fandom is stagnant so new fic is a treasure. It was slashy porn. Not only was it porn but it was boring porn with every cliche in the book, something I might write and I'm a terrible porn writer and should never be allowed to write it again. PWP is supposed to be exactly that but does it have to be so formulaic? It checked too many boxes in the wrong list. Hate-sex, dub-con. Just ick really.
The last few fics in the fandom have been PWP in English and Russian, one schmoopy slash fic, (a death fic written for me), and that Freaky Friday story I started for Mitch. There was an interesting AU where Vance never joined the team and ended up with the X-Men but that's stalled.
God, it's all so boring except any story written for me, those are nuggets of pure sweet gold.
Retiring from a dead fandom doesn't seem like a big thing but it's my comfy fandom blankey, and I've been clinging to it too long. We all stay with fandoms for our own reasons but those reasons don't stack up for me anymore.