take a look at me now!

[candycocoon]

AND THE VENTING PROCESS BEGINS HERE....

you say im like my mom..
but you dont know me!
so fuck you !
im mean to you cuz i dont know what else
to do.. wat happened??
you were my king and i was your queen..
now you like the fact that im here when you
want some.. but it wont last that way forever.

I HAVE BEEN SECRETLY FALLING APART!!

getting drunk makes everything easier for me..
so dont give me shit when you show up to
my friends party.. why did you end up
at my house.. you should of went home..
but i caved cuz you sat there cring your eyes
out tellin me these nice things..it would of been
easier now if that didnt happen!

and i know you love me you said it your self
even after this was over!!

but you know what you let me down and
left me like everyone else!!

you call that love..
your nothing but selfish

and you only miss me when i tell you
that i dont wanna talk to you ever again
then you start caring!!

why cant we just go back to the start..

when i 1st met you ..
our first time shopping ..
our first kiss in album park..
the first time you said i love you...

you said so your self its wat you want..
then you said you have to do wat you have to do..
make up your fucking mind!!!

i deserve to be happy and im not happy!!

today there was some one who made me feel like
i can do so much better than you..
and he was so right!

I FUCKING HATE YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE
IN THIS GOD FORSAKEN PLACE !!!
YOU SAY YOU UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL
BUT YOU DONT KNOW FUCKING SHIT!!