hard luck
6 MORE DAYS OF CHRISTMAS MUSIC
yeahh so i'm sooooo tired.
ok 2 accidents in one day and $1000 dollars later...
i have my car back! lol
i guess i'm feeling better since i've pretty muched stopped drinking i've been able to hold onto some of my friends [well with a dew exceptions]. gene called me today, i didn't answer!! ha proud of myself lol. i've actually been happy hanging out with the good kids lol as much as i miss the drama and fun. well tomorrow is gene's birthday... i might call him to at least wish him a happy 20th, damn he's getting so old. it's weird to think we've been best friends for 3 years!!
anyway... i think i'm doing better pretending to not be upset about gags anymore. i guess our friendship is over, which really sucks. i'll never accept these things, instead just cry about it over livejournal.
yeahh so i really like eric, he's pretty awesome. he's like really smart, i can actually have a conversation with him, he cracks me up. i know i've been getting crap from a lot of my friends hmm who would think... lisa actually falling for a guy. when it comes to relationships i'm a total guy lol. i'm the first one to use a guy, lead him on, and then basically be a totally insensitive bitch. it's extremely rare that i find someone i might actually want to change for.. and when that happens i tell myself i'll be more caring and not screw shit up, but of course i usually fail. i think i need a tough guy especially emotionally. my mom told me that before and i've started to believe it. i'll push a guy and his limits. my mom even told one of my ex-boyfriends that i'm out of control. the sad part is it's true.
on muuuuch brighter note...
* julie had an x-mas party!! madd fun
* i won $12 on scratchies
* 3 and a half day week
* winter concert on thursday... hell yeah!!
my hopes are so high
that your kiss might kill me
so won't you kill me
so i die happy
yeahh so i'm sooooo tired.
ok 2 accidents in one day and $1000 dollars later...
i have my car back! lol
i guess i'm feeling better since i've pretty muched stopped drinking i've been able to hold onto some of my friends [well with a dew exceptions]. gene called me today, i didn't answer!! ha proud of myself lol. i've actually been happy hanging out with the good kids lol as much as i miss the drama and fun. well tomorrow is gene's birthday... i might call him to at least wish him a happy 20th, damn he's getting so old. it's weird to think we've been best friends for 3 years!!
anyway... i think i'm doing better pretending to not be upset about gags anymore. i guess our friendship is over, which really sucks. i'll never accept these things, instead just cry about it over livejournal.
yeahh so i really like eric, he's pretty awesome. he's like really smart, i can actually have a conversation with him, he cracks me up. i know i've been getting crap from a lot of my friends hmm who would think... lisa actually falling for a guy. when it comes to relationships i'm a total guy lol. i'm the first one to use a guy, lead him on, and then basically be a totally insensitive bitch. it's extremely rare that i find someone i might actually want to change for.. and when that happens i tell myself i'll be more caring and not screw shit up, but of course i usually fail. i think i need a tough guy especially emotionally. my mom told me that before and i've started to believe it. i'll push a guy and his limits. my mom even told one of my ex-boyfriends that i'm out of control. the sad part is it's true.
on muuuuch brighter note...
* julie had an x-mas party!! madd fun
* i won $12 on scratchies
* 3 and a half day week
* winter concert on thursday... hell yeah!!
my hopes are so high
that your kiss might kill me
so won't you kill me
so i die happy