I'm getting better at fighting the future.
Sitting in my bed drinking coffee from my french press.
God, the thought of doing anymore school has been making me sick to my stomach lately but still I go and I go and I hate it but I need it and I know it. If I didn't have only half a year left of high school, I would want to drop out. Then there's all this college bullshit that people spew in my direction every day until I want to rip my hair out. Just leave it the fuck alone, okay? I'm not too stupid to know the prospects and possibilities if one goes to college and blah blah blah. If you understood, then you would be me. I'm not asking for understanding and this college crap is starting to drive me insane. My thesis is crap and at the rate I'm going, I'll never finish my novel. I just want to sleep all day. Ever since I moved back home I've been tossing and turning all night and never gaining any energy from what little rest I get. I zone out all the time during school and on the bus, more than usual. Things just seem so bleak when it's pouring out and windy and grey. It makes me want to pretend it's the weekend all the time just like effin' Jack Johnson. Gah. It's a good thing I'm not complaining a lot or anything, cause that might be annoying. Oh wait. Well shit. It's time to go to "sleep" or something.
Good night.
God, the thought of doing anymore school has been making me sick to my stomach lately but still I go and I go and I hate it but I need it and I know it. If I didn't have only half a year left of high school, I would want to drop out. Then there's all this college bullshit that people spew in my direction every day until I want to rip my hair out. Just leave it the fuck alone, okay? I'm not too stupid to know the prospects and possibilities if one goes to college and blah blah blah. If you understood, then you would be me. I'm not asking for understanding and this college crap is starting to drive me insane. My thesis is crap and at the rate I'm going, I'll never finish my novel. I just want to sleep all day. Ever since I moved back home I've been tossing and turning all night and never gaining any energy from what little rest I get. I zone out all the time during school and on the bus, more than usual. Things just seem so bleak when it's pouring out and windy and grey. It makes me want to pretend it's the weekend all the time just like effin' Jack Johnson. Gah. It's a good thing I'm not complaining a lot or anything, cause that might be annoying. Oh wait. Well shit. It's time to go to "sleep" or something.
Good night.