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To succeed in life, you either have to be fit a very specific mold, or you have to be a complete freak. I feel like I'm neither normal nor wierd enough to succeed.
I realized why I'm supposed to have an girlfriend. Ok, let's say why I'm supposed to have had one. It's because as an ordinary human being I'm meant to be in some kind of relationship by this advanced stage of life! I'm not talking about physical urges! I'm talking about psychological development!
Normal people like other normal people and are liked by them in return, so this never becomes a problem for them. Thus, they succeed where I have failed!
Complete mental cases have to need of such things. Thus, they succeed where I have failed!
And yes, I regard this as a complete failure of myself, not the result of any kind of unusual circumstance.
To use Her as an example... why, She herself told me it wasn't a real relationship.
Useless!! Everything I do and feel is useless!
Curses on me, and on everyone and everything!
I am not un-, para-, or extra- ordinary. I am sub-ordinary!
I hate highschool.
I realized why I'm supposed to have an girlfriend. Ok, let's say why I'm supposed to have had one. It's because as an ordinary human being I'm meant to be in some kind of relationship by this advanced stage of life! I'm not talking about physical urges! I'm talking about psychological development!
Normal people like other normal people and are liked by them in return, so this never becomes a problem for them. Thus, they succeed where I have failed!
Complete mental cases have to need of such things. Thus, they succeed where I have failed!
And yes, I regard this as a complete failure of myself, not the result of any kind of unusual circumstance.
To use Her as an example... why, She herself told me it wasn't a real relationship.
Useless!! Everything I do and feel is useless!
Curses on me, and on everyone and everything!
I am not un-, para-, or extra- ordinary. I am sub-ordinary!
I hate highschool.