the greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do.
if this is the last day of my life, for reals, i would like to say that i think i did a pretty damn good job of living it. ;)
yeah, i haven't gone bungee jumping yet and i still haven't ordered a beautiful latin dress but like right now there is nothing pressing that i would do or regret not doing. if 8.17am tomorrow is really it for me, i think i did a good job of living my life till the moment. i can't remember when i stopped questioning : i used to wake up every morning and ask myself - what would you do if you died today? the first few weeks i did that, i was hella terrified. i kept thinking i don't wanna die, panicking, thinking of all the things i hadn't done, had yet to do.
right now, the only thing i'd regret is not having seen or spoken to my family in a while. i guess i know what i will be doing tomorrow -- calling them. i am so grateful and love them so so so much - cried like crazy when they left me in norcal. but aside from that, i have a goal, i have fun everyday, i learn something new, i try my best. i was really productive (up till today haha, then i just danced a lot), i have done everything that i wanted to do that is within my means. i think i could die happy. or at least content.
one of these days is gonna be our last anyway. you won't know when, why, how, or what. but if it happens, i had special experiences, i met wonderful people, i wish i saw my parents more, i really studied something i loved learning. i am happy.
and i love you all, everyone. i know school is busy and sometimes i get caught up with ballroom and what not, and just there is no time to text or facebook, but everyone who has been in my life, whether as a friend, a lover, a stumbling block, a teacher, you have taught me so much and undoubtedly i have spent hours talking about you, thinking about you, discussing something about you that touched me and changed my life. <3
thank you.
yeah, i haven't gone bungee jumping yet and i still haven't ordered a beautiful latin dress but like right now there is nothing pressing that i would do or regret not doing. if 8.17am tomorrow is really it for me, i think i did a good job of living my life till the moment. i can't remember when i stopped questioning : i used to wake up every morning and ask myself - what would you do if you died today? the first few weeks i did that, i was hella terrified. i kept thinking i don't wanna die, panicking, thinking of all the things i hadn't done, had yet to do.
right now, the only thing i'd regret is not having seen or spoken to my family in a while. i guess i know what i will be doing tomorrow -- calling them. i am so grateful and love them so so so much - cried like crazy when they left me in norcal. but aside from that, i have a goal, i have fun everyday, i learn something new, i try my best. i was really productive (up till today haha, then i just danced a lot), i have done everything that i wanted to do that is within my means. i think i could die happy. or at least content.
one of these days is gonna be our last anyway. you won't know when, why, how, or what. but if it happens, i had special experiences, i met wonderful people, i wish i saw my parents more, i really studied something i loved learning. i am happy.
and i love you all, everyone. i know school is busy and sometimes i get caught up with ballroom and what not, and just there is no time to text or facebook, but everyone who has been in my life, whether as a friend, a lover, a stumbling block, a teacher, you have taught me so much and undoubtedly i have spent hours talking about you, thinking about you, discussing something about you that touched me and changed my life. <3
thank you.