to steven:::
Steven:::
What have I done? What have I lost? Do I even know? I stayed awake in a train of thoughts. All I can think about was that one night. It was just me and you after that crazy concert. It just seemed like that night was ment to be. Everything that was said just fit in my head. It all seemed so perfect like it was ment to be. Do you remember that night? You took me to Star Lake, and you told me everything I wanted to hear. . . the weird thing is that you seemed like you ment every word. Like you only wanted me. I hate that you could make me feel that way. Like the world stopped just in that moment. The way you held me and I knew everything was true. Why did everything have to end with that night? Then the fights came. . . then the late nights. We both got sick of it and I couldn't stand it. Then I lost myself to you, and I feel so disgusted with everything. The way things ended, the way we hate it, the endless fights. The bullshit has ended, and now it is time for some truth. I'm sorry for the other day. I said some things I didnt really mean to say. I know you don't care, but I want to clear my head for good. At least I will leave this knowing I tried to make things right. All the things you said to me the other day, doesn't make since. Why would you go out of your way for someone you never cared about? Why didnt you leave after you got it? I shouldn't even care, but I can't help but think about that night. The one that felt so "right". It might have been all bullshit and lies but I refuse to think that. I'm not askin for another chance. All I ever wanted from you was a FrIeNdShIp. I guess that was unreasonable. . . for a girl you grew to hate.
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