What do i do??
So..haven't written on here for awhile. So my life has been crazy. School is busy as usual and i have so much to do every night....One night i actually ended up crying right in front of my roomate because i've been so stressed! Thank God i have her around to keep me sane with school. Now, i have a huge problem. I went into the bathroom in my room yesterday and found a journal that she has been writing in out on top of the sink. I didn't think anything of it...it was right on top of the toilet paper. I had to remove it in order to get to the toilet paper. I probably shouldn't have...but i read it. Now i wish i didn't. I know if i had a journal i wouldn't just keep it out for my roomate to find. In it she talks about how she has been losing weight and talks about her bulimia. Never knew that this was going on and i kinda freaked out. I have been calm and tried not to think about it but really how can i not. I put the journal right back where it was on top of the toilet paper. Later on when i went in it was on top of my contact case....Is she doing this deliberately so that i would read it?????? is it a cry for help??? I don't wanna be like "Hey i ready your journal...how's your bulimia going?" I never had to deal with it....Lately she hasn't been eating much...and then there are days that she will work out constantly like there's no tomorrow and then there are days that she will only eat once a day. I talked with the counselor here and he said that more than likely she left the journal on the sink hoping that i would find it....she wants help. I know if i had bulimia i wouldn't just leave a journal that i wrote about it out in the open for anyone to find. She has been in bathroom so i know she had to have seen it out on top of the sink....why wouldn't she bother to put it away?? I'm so confused and she confided to me last night that she feels like she has no friends besides me and another one of our friends....yet she is the most popular person on campus. She also told me that she has been depressed lately because her ex has another girlfriend and pretending that he is straight when he is really gay...and pretending that he is happy. She doesn't think she's beautiful and she feels like she is scraping to be happy....I talked with her about all that and her depression....but how do you bring up the subject of bulimia?????? She's my best friend..i don't wanna lose her. If i don't talk with her about it...she'll die. If i do and she gets mad...what will happen with our friendship??? I'm so confused and wish that life was so much easier than this. Why am i always in the middle of things?? I wanna help her...but i wish i knew how..My best friend is dying and i don't know what to do....