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I bought Matt and I matching webcams for christmas. I got my webcam all hooked up today, and am taking pictures.. woot.
I don't know what it is about this time of the year. I'm not the type of person who thinks their life sucks all the time, and I don't usually update my livejournal when I'm depressed (or ever...) but I needed to vent so whatever.
Life sucks. Yeah. Matt moved to Zeeland, Michigan, for his co-op job. He'll live there for about 3 months, then its back to Kettering for him. So Zeeland is, oh, roughly an 1 and 47 mins away. Which I suppose could be worse, but that's 2 hours away. And Matt and I hadn't been getting along this past 2 weeks, which was our winter break. So I got to see him maybe once or twice, then we got into a fight and whatnot, and the day he moves up to zeeland, we resolve it. I don't know. I'm so confused right now. Not what's going on between Matt and I, 'cause that's all cleared up. But just the fact that I am doing nothing with my life. I'm going to LCC. YAY. Every other one of my high school friends has a life and a job that pays more than 5.50 an hour and doesn't make you work on the only days you get to see your boyfriend, the only days he's even home. Everyone is out at a party tonight, but not me. Because I still feel like a child, and I guess that's all I'm seen as, because that's what I'm still treated as. I wish LCC had a dorm, so I could live away from home and have a life.
I got my hair cut today, and it looks exactly the same. another one of the winter blah's things. I feel nasty, my hair is poofy and has a weird winter color, and then I am so damn pale. and GOD that sounded vain. but that's how I feel. I want to be wanted, I guess that's all I want. and I think I always feel this way in the winter, for some reason.
All in all, the good news is that I am possibly getting contacts. Matt and I will eventually see each other this weekend, and I won't be ragging. yay. too much info for everyone...
...myself included. buuuttt life still is kinda poopy. This is part of the reason I haven't been updating as much, because I don't want to look back and see the poopy times. Ahh.. No more wallowing in self-pity. Feels good to vent, no?
I've got some new years resolutions that I will actually keep, and aren't too out of reach.
Relax my hair. *chillax*
Get Contacts
Finish this next semester with over a 3.4 so I can get into the school of business at MSU. (p.s., I got a 4.0 in my business class, go me.)
Lose 10-15 pounds. (This'll be the hardest, no doubt.)
Maintain a steady, some what perfect relationship with Matt (Or will this be the hardest? I hope not.)
and finally -
Accept myself for who I am.
Happy New Years to everyone, happy 2006. <3 Thanks to everyone who stuck by me this past year.
I don't know what it is about this time of the year. I'm not the type of person who thinks their life sucks all the time, and I don't usually update my livejournal when I'm depressed (or ever...) but I needed to vent so whatever.
Life sucks. Yeah. Matt moved to Zeeland, Michigan, for his co-op job. He'll live there for about 3 months, then its back to Kettering for him. So Zeeland is, oh, roughly an 1 and 47 mins away. Which I suppose could be worse, but that's 2 hours away. And Matt and I hadn't been getting along this past 2 weeks, which was our winter break. So I got to see him maybe once or twice, then we got into a fight and whatnot, and the day he moves up to zeeland, we resolve it. I don't know. I'm so confused right now. Not what's going on between Matt and I, 'cause that's all cleared up. But just the fact that I am doing nothing with my life. I'm going to LCC. YAY. Every other one of my high school friends has a life and a job that pays more than 5.50 an hour and doesn't make you work on the only days you get to see your boyfriend, the only days he's even home. Everyone is out at a party tonight, but not me. Because I still feel like a child, and I guess that's all I'm seen as, because that's what I'm still treated as. I wish LCC had a dorm, so I could live away from home and have a life.
I got my hair cut today, and it looks exactly the same. another one of the winter blah's things. I feel nasty, my hair is poofy and has a weird winter color, and then I am so damn pale. and GOD that sounded vain. but that's how I feel. I want to be wanted, I guess that's all I want. and I think I always feel this way in the winter, for some reason.
All in all, the good news is that I am possibly getting contacts. Matt and I will eventually see each other this weekend, and I won't be ragging. yay. too much info for everyone...
...myself included. buuuttt life still is kinda poopy. This is part of the reason I haven't been updating as much, because I don't want to look back and see the poopy times. Ahh.. No more wallowing in self-pity. Feels good to vent, no?
I've got some new years resolutions that I will actually keep, and aren't too out of reach.
and finally -
Happy New Years to everyone, happy 2006. <3 Thanks to everyone who stuck by me this past year.