A big wonderful mess
I don't reccognize this feeling I have in my stomach and perhaps that's why this is so hard.
okay.
well, I'm torn. Between two. Yes, it's always two. But tonight I have made a wonderful plan in one direction. I feel like the other direction is hopeless...though I wish it weren't every day. I have feelings that I don't like to feel, but I can't ignor them.
I'm mad that I never got it. I'm sort of hurt that everything that wasn't meant to be forgottn was, and everything that was suppose to be, was the only thing remembered. I know that doesn't make much sense, but my head sometimes gets messy and I can't put things the way they should be put.
But those bad feelings go so far away whenever I get pulled towards that other direction and...it's nice. I like it. And yet...I know it's one-sided and that is the only thing that really bothers me to the point where even I try to forget.
But sometimes I can hear everything splintering...
It's my fault though, so don't worry.
Anyways, tonight we are baking treats and then I am going to throw myself at one direction and we'll see what happens. At this point I don't really even care if I get hurt, I'm worried about perhaps others. But I don't see any other thing I could have done to save anybody.
This is going to be fun. Sorry I'm so vauge. Today is one of those days where my head is really messy.
okay.
well, I'm torn. Between two. Yes, it's always two. But tonight I have made a wonderful plan in one direction. I feel like the other direction is hopeless...though I wish it weren't every day. I have feelings that I don't like to feel, but I can't ignor them.
I'm mad that I never got it. I'm sort of hurt that everything that wasn't meant to be forgottn was, and everything that was suppose to be, was the only thing remembered. I know that doesn't make much sense, but my head sometimes gets messy and I can't put things the way they should be put.
But those bad feelings go so far away whenever I get pulled towards that other direction and...it's nice. I like it. And yet...I know it's one-sided and that is the only thing that really bothers me to the point where even I try to forget.
But sometimes I can hear everything splintering...
It's my fault though, so don't worry.
Anyways, tonight we are baking treats and then I am going to throw myself at one direction and we'll see what happens. At this point I don't really even care if I get hurt, I'm worried about perhaps others. But I don't see any other thing I could have done to save anybody.
This is going to be fun. Sorry I'm so vauge. Today is one of those days where my head is really messy.