Another Birthday...
So....I'm 26.
Why do we care how old we are? I wish I could forget. Maybe I'll try. I don't want to watch some number my whole life, wondering how high it can go, and knowing each year is another closer to the end. I just want to live, not one year at a time, but my whole life at a time. But I digress....
Funny, it doesn't feel any different than 25. But everytime a birthday rolls around, it makes me think. And usually it makes me sad. There's always so much waste, year after year. Wasted time, wasted money, wasted things, wasted thoughts, wasted feelings.
Year after year of sweating the small stuff...the shit that just doesn't matter. How many times was I late for work? Have I really been all I can be? What sort of impression did I leave on ________?
Year after year of working for everyone but me.
And so, my friends...it has to stop. This is my birthday resolution. Fuck new years! this is the one that counts! :) It's MY new year. I'm sure there are other people that can celebrate it on the same day, and it's their new year too. Wonder if any of them feel the way I do?
Wait, let's make a list. Lists are always fun! So here's my list of how I want to change things in my life:
1. No sweating over time. If I'm ten minutes late to work, don't stress. If I have to stay late, don't stress. Sleep when I'm tired. Eat when I'm hungry. Stop watching the clock every waking second.
2. Get out more. Life is not meant to be spent in a box...be it an apartment or an office. Go, explore, discover.
3. Be comfortable in what I have. I don't need to save money all the time for more shit I don't need. I need to use it to live life, travel, be comfortable. For the first time ever I have enough of it, so it shouldn't stress me anymore.
4. Forget impressions. I'd rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not. Love me or hate me, I really don't care. I love me, and that's what matters :)
5. Education. I've got the GI Bill. I can get student loans. Might as well learn something. But I don't care if I ever get a degree. I will take classes I'm interested in, to learn about whatever I want. I want knowledge, not credentials.
6. Looks. Got me a new haircut, and got some new clothes. Not professional enough? F-U, I'm not at work, and my life doesn't center around it either! :)
7. Leave options open. If someone calls me on Wednesday night and wants to go out, don't worry about work on thursday. Living and enjoying it is what's important! If someone suggests a weekend trip on Friday afternoon, hey, let's go!
There it is! It's nice to sit back and realize that the list of things I would change in my life is less than ten items long :) Sure, some of them are big, but most are subtle mindset changes. I think I'm going to just hang them on the wall as a constant reminder.
*LoVe to all....no time or reason for anything else :)
Why do we care how old we are? I wish I could forget. Maybe I'll try. I don't want to watch some number my whole life, wondering how high it can go, and knowing each year is another closer to the end. I just want to live, not one year at a time, but my whole life at a time. But I digress....
Funny, it doesn't feel any different than 25. But everytime a birthday rolls around, it makes me think. And usually it makes me sad. There's always so much waste, year after year. Wasted time, wasted money, wasted things, wasted thoughts, wasted feelings.
Year after year of sweating the small stuff...the shit that just doesn't matter. How many times was I late for work? Have I really been all I can be? What sort of impression did I leave on ________?
Year after year of working for everyone but me.
And so, my friends...it has to stop. This is my birthday resolution. Fuck new years! this is the one that counts! :) It's MY new year. I'm sure there are other people that can celebrate it on the same day, and it's their new year too. Wonder if any of them feel the way I do?
Wait, let's make a list. Lists are always fun! So here's my list of how I want to change things in my life:
1. No sweating over time. If I'm ten minutes late to work, don't stress. If I have to stay late, don't stress. Sleep when I'm tired. Eat when I'm hungry. Stop watching the clock every waking second.
2. Get out more. Life is not meant to be spent in a box...be it an apartment or an office. Go, explore, discover.
3. Be comfortable in what I have. I don't need to save money all the time for more shit I don't need. I need to use it to live life, travel, be comfortable. For the first time ever I have enough of it, so it shouldn't stress me anymore.
4. Forget impressions. I'd rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not. Love me or hate me, I really don't care. I love me, and that's what matters :)
5. Education. I've got the GI Bill. I can get student loans. Might as well learn something. But I don't care if I ever get a degree. I will take classes I'm interested in, to learn about whatever I want. I want knowledge, not credentials.
6. Looks. Got me a new haircut, and got some new clothes. Not professional enough? F-U, I'm not at work, and my life doesn't center around it either! :)
7. Leave options open. If someone calls me on Wednesday night and wants to go out, don't worry about work on thursday. Living and enjoying it is what's important! If someone suggests a weekend trip on Friday afternoon, hey, let's go!
There it is! It's nice to sit back and realize that the list of things I would change in my life is less than ten items long :) Sure, some of them are big, but most are subtle mindset changes. I think I'm going to just hang them on the wall as a constant reminder.
*LoVe to all....no time or reason for anything else :)