The Accuser
You are my biggest accuser. You are the only one who really has the right to. But with you, you carry all those who have passed by my life and only saw one thing. The scars. The heavy load upon my back. And see it for nothing more but something I have brought upon myself. You represent those I have tried to draw near to with a smile I've tried to muster upon my distorted face so I can try to feel the least bit beautiful...enough to be worthy of your presence. You represent those I have tried love eventhough I'm already having a hard time loving myself. You represent the boulder I try to push every day and every night so I can remain in the light. Because I want to be in the light. You represent the teacher who only saw mistakes instead of the long days of toil that I spent letting the words and lessons sink into my very being so I can try to at least get one answer right.
I have come a long way to come here. I have carried nothing but myself and my memories and even left my tears behind because I may be too heavy. I've tried to pack light. But you only saw the dirt on the soles of my shoes. And not the truth...that no matter how far I've come...I gone through every thorn, thistle and bush...just to get here.
Dear God, help me not be an accuser. Help me to see through every person and experience. Help me not look too far but help me not be an accuser to the one who needs me not to be...to the one nearest me today.
Amen.
I have come a long way to come here. I have carried nothing but myself and my memories and even left my tears behind because I may be too heavy. I've tried to pack light. But you only saw the dirt on the soles of my shoes. And not the truth...that no matter how far I've come...I gone through every thorn, thistle and bush...just to get here.
Dear God, help me not be an accuser. Help me to see through every person and experience. Help me not look too far but help me not be an accuser to the one who needs me not to be...to the one nearest me today.
Amen.