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i do not have to work today. there are so many things that could be done and i'm making and un-making the list in my head as i type. i will probably be making it all the way into monday when i'm standing over some silly child who is asking me how to spell "chair".
i have been so full of ups and downs lately. hormones are apparently very evil things. if they aren't then i am crazy. either way it isn't pleasant. my goal this year, and maybe for the rest of my life, is to get out of my head and start living among people and the real. the alternative is an internal scape that is jagged and pointy and sharp and is no place to have a picnic. the inside of my head is so much easier to deal with than other people though, even jesse. it just doesn't make me happy.
i have been so full of ups and downs lately. hormones are apparently very evil things. if they aren't then i am crazy. either way it isn't pleasant. my goal this year, and maybe for the rest of my life, is to get out of my head and start living among people and the real. the alternative is an internal scape that is jagged and pointy and sharp and is no place to have a picnic. the inside of my head is so much easier to deal with than other people though, even jesse. it just doesn't make me happy.