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[candinadian]

i am at home doing laundry, then i need to go to kohls to spend a coupon my mom got shopping there the day after thanksgiving. i am going to go up to the park. the park where we would meet. the park where i gave her the bte puzzle. and she threw me the most awesome birthday party ever. because i can't hate her. i need to remember the good things that happened, between friends. because i want that back so much. and hate is not healthy. i think that i am past the hate, and almost past the hurt....it is just somewhere that i feel i have to go.

i just wished i still smoked. how picturesque would it be for me to be standing there, looking down on the city, smoke making gray trails up into the sky, where my hopes reside.