Don’t need to work hard that’s the way I feel
Soo. My day yesterday.
I woke up at 6am and got ready and by 7:10 I was at the school and no one was fucking there, not even our coach. At 7:15, our alotted time for depature, everyone gets there and stupid Coach S went with us, the female coach. I just dont like her much anymore and I'll explain more later. So we get on the bus and our bus driver looks like Santa Claus on CRACK and I find out i'm our 3rd seed for singles (god!! WHY CAN'T I BE THE FOURTH SEED!? DAMN YOU CAROLYN!) and then we get to the school... and find out the 3rd and 4th seed singles and 3rd seed doubles are being shipped off to another school...
A PERFECT time for fucking NICK to be there. And stupid Coach S thought that our bus driver would be her little chauffeur for the day and would just drive her around from site to site. what the fuck ever. We (Kim, Carolyn, Carrie, and myself) were going to call Nick ourselves but Maddie had his number but she was at the first site since she was our #1 seed. We were even going to call our head coach to get his number but we just decided against it.
We got to the other site totally by ourselves (but my dad was there with snacks and stuff for me and the other girls. My dad was basically our coach for the day and our cheerleader. xD) and I began my first match.
GAHH. I lost 6-0 6-0 again. I just couldn't get my mind in the right place the entire match, i made some silly mistakes but damn, this girl was good. She used dropshots so many times i was just like whoaaa. But I didn't mind, I know it was my fault. I can just never be positive but that changed during my second match.
During our breaks, we were all pissed off. Kayla (she was #2 doubles with Lucretia) called and said Coach S said that none of us (the girls at the other site) listened to her so thats why she made her and Lucretia #1 doubles or whatever. Well FUCK her. Whenever she comes up to us in one of our matches to help us, we basically lose and everyone agrees. Whenever she helps me in a match, I'll follow her advice and just be totally dominating so really, I just dont even listen to her because nothing she says helps.
Nick never tries to make us do anything out of our comfort zone, he morely takes us aside if we're winning and just lets us play it out when we're loosing, cheering us on on our good points and such and thats what I like. Coach S fucks me up even worse when I'm losing and I get a total bad attitude on court if I'm losing so that just really does NOT help me. And he actually takes time to study our game and make our lineups RIGHT. Coach S seriously must have threw together our lineup (though she was right on Maddie being #1 and Lisa/Sami being #1 doubles) And we all play better when he's aroud (we're all trying to impress him so we play alot better.. LOL. I am SO glad everyone thinks he's hot.)
Oh, and he hasn't been able to be at practice lately because last week our practice time changed from 3 to 5 to 9 to 11am and he has to work during the morrnings so he just couldn't be there and I just found out that Nick and Coach S don't get along at all and I found out that Coach S is trying to steal Nick's job as assistant coach. OH FUCK NO. She better not or i'm quitting.
okay.
During my second match, I was doing goood! It went 0-1, 1-1, 2-1, 2-2, 3-2, and THEN I almost fucking broke for 4-2 and then... I can start hearing my heart beat really really fast in my ears and everything seems to get a little brighter... which basically means i'm about to pass out, no literally. So i'm like to my opponent (who was SO nice, we got along SO well) "i'm about to pass out so i'm sitting down now, okay." and I sat down and basically lost my momentum after that (and morely I was really scared I was going to pass out) and then I lost the first set 3-6 and then in the second set my bad attitude came back (in the first I had so much confidence and was so happy during any point, win or lose) and I lost it 0-6 though in the end I almost brought many games to deuce and during the last game of the match I came back from 0-40 to deuce and had it so close to 1-5 but during the deuce my fucking backhand went wide and yeah. pfft.
Coach S eventually came to talk to me (she only stayed at our site for like 5 minutes, that bitch) and mainly just said I was playing great and was improving much but yeah, she knows I have a bad attitude most of the time and that needs to change. I just need confidence and I will definately take that first set as a confidence booster but mainly I just need to go into every match thinking I can win. And at some points my serve is really dominating. During the second it was amazing since most of the time i was pissed off and just totally put so much power into it that when my opponent got to the ball, it just basically died. I want to serve like that all of the timeee! But yeah, my serve is really improving! I'm so excited. I just need to work on my groundstrokes. During my first match, my groundstrokes were horrible and most rallys basically were short but in the second the rallys were long, which made me feel happy.
So after that, it was basically boring. We got back to the first site and Maddie lost her 3rd round match but Sami/Lisa went pretty deep though I dont know if they won since I just left early since there was nothing for me to do.
Then Antoinette came over and we ate Cousins Subs and watched Memoirs Of A Geisha, Little Miss Sunshine, and then some other shows and ate tons of food and then watched Dahmer on Youtube for a while before talking in bed and punching and kicking my exercise ball at the walls of my room until like 5am. It was really fun. During the morrning, we ate breakfast sandwiches, watched rock of love and hogans knows best with my dad and then watched Vacancy and went to the store and such and then we left to take Antoinette home.
And I think my spine is finally starting to push in on some of my organs (TMI, I know) because I am going to the bathroom like ALOT. Fuck you spine. Stop squishing my fucking bladder.
I am absolutely sunburnt and disgusting, so I am going to go lay down now. Tommarow is a stupid morrning practice but this week should be all afternoon practices so hopefully Nick will be there. I can't wait to see him again.
And of course the brewers lost today which sucks. They need to get their shit together for their upcomming series against the Cubs. They NEED to win. And also, Tatiana plays tommarow! Good luck! I really hope they show her on TV!! PLEASE!!